Not sure if this is supposed to be posted here, but could I be gay? [NSFW]

Hello,I'm 20 years old. I thought I was a straight male for most of my life, even if I did question once if I was gay around age 11. I was watching an ecchi anime, and considered.... well, I wanted to be the woman in a sexual scene, and have stuff done to me I guess, and did some stuff that may not be considered the most heterosexual. Eventually, I pushed it aside because I knew I liked girls, to some degree at least. I mean, I mainly visualized or thought about females.Well, around age 19 I discovered transgender people, and what that meant. I realized that I would much rather be a woman. So, I began to transition and take hormones. I still was not sure of my sexuality, because I realized I don't really care about my genitals, or what genitals my partner has. I don't really like the idea of ever using my genitalia, but if my partner had a penis or vagina it would be okay either way to me. However, I do know I love femininity. Soft skin, no facial or body hair, a quiet or high pitched voice, and a small or skinny frame. That is what is attractive to me, and I realized I may be into men. That idea consumed me for a month or two, because it was so new and different. I realized how much I could like a guy, and I never knew that before. However, it just seems like my type of guy is sooooooo rare or unusual, and to be honest, I still like girls a lot. I guess that it's something like "well, if there was the perfect guy I would prefer that, but it's so unlikely, and easier for me to like girls".As time goes on, I also am questioning my gender more. I realized that I am too frustrated or hurt by not passing as a female, and I'd rather live as a male than look terrible as a woman. I also realized that I am not upset or unhappy with being called a he/him/guy, but only when it is in the sense of a non-binary man, or a transgender male, or a demiboy. I really just hate the label of a cismale, because I don't really identify as 100% male or as a guy. Genderfluid works for me, I like that label. I just don't know if I prefer that label, or straight up MtF right now. I know that regardless, I want to continue taking estrogen and be feminine, because it makes me very happy and that is the type of body I want to have.With all of this information, what would you consider me to be?