It finally happened!!

I'm horrible at translating my thoughts in to text but I'll try my best. ANYWAY I live in a rural NC town and have known I was gay since I was 12 (25 now) and I've never been comfortable with my sexuality until recently. A couple of months ago I started coming out to my closest of friends and everyone has been super supportive even though most were very surprised.So I thought life was getting better but I still had a hole in my heart that needed to be filled. I wanted a companion so I downloaded every gay dating app I could and all anyone ever wanted was sexy and I didn't want that because I'm not comfortable with my body. I want sex but I also want a relationship and this was really having a negative effect on me so i deleted all of the apps and wallowed in my sorrow.After about a month of being lonely I decided to say fuck it and download grinder and tinder again just so I could find a good fuck session and get over this junk I was in. Anyway I matched with this super attractive guy but didn't message him because I seriously thought he was way out of my league. I mean he is super fucking cute and I don't consider myself attractive so I ignored it for a day until he messaged me with "your facial hair looks great on you" and it started from there.We've been talking every day for hours on end. We text all day at work and when I get home we FaceTime until one of us falls asleep. It feels so good. So perfect. I'm going to go see him this weekend and I've got butterflies in my stomach. I feel like I'm in high school again.I've been lurking in this community for a while now and you guys are super supportive and it feels great to be a part of it. I can't wait to start my gay journey of life with him.