hi guys, just made a throwaway account to post this!
basically I (22M) feel like I'm actually addicted to porn and masturbation, is this even possible? if so, how do i go about trying to overcome my addiction?
Here is a little back story...
after finding out my ex was cheating on me for 6 months when i was 18 and we had a horrendous break up, basically police were involved (nothing too serious) and she totally ruined my life (at the time) ever since then I've totally been off girls, not in the fact that I've turned gay or bi or anything (not that anything is wrong with that) its just she's put me off women massively! we were ridiculously close and had an amazing relationship (i thought anyway) We were always together and always happy spending time with each other but it came to an abrubt end. In the 4 years since we've split I've tried getting close to girls again but always push them away after my previous partner etc.
Now heres where the title comes in, basically since i was around 14 and started masturbating I've always done it, but it wasn't until me and my ex split that I started watching Porn, it started out everyone now and again but over the years its got to the point where I'm masturbating all the time, for instance, as soon as i wake up in the morning, before i go to work, as soon as i get home from work and at various points in the evening, also as soon as i get to bed i feel like i have to watch porn and masturbate multiple times before i can actually sleep, i can even masturbate multiple times if i wake up in the middle of the night! So i'd easily say atlas 7-10 times a day, all with watching porn and all with orgasms!
its been playing on my mind recently about my ex and that i got stuck in this rut of not even talking to girls at all for the fear of getting upset over something happening etc.
However, just before the new year I've decided to move cities (300miles away from previous home) to try and move on and forget her/whole relationship. Ive got myself a new house and a brand new job and I'm loving it! Ive actually had to talk to girls at work for the fact we spend all day together obviously but i still don't trust any women (MAJORLY frustrating) and I've now come to the decision in my life to work on the fact that i KNOW I'm addicted to porn and masturbation but i DONT know how to help myself and get it sorted!
Ive tried going cold turkey and not watch porn or masturbate but I've managed 2 days tops, as soon as nobody is in the house i feel like i have to masturbate again.
PLEASE, if you know of a way that could help, let me know, I'm willing to try pretty much anything!
i hope this post hasn't gone on for too long but i really really do hope you guys don't think I'm just a freak and laugh, i do mean this whole thread 110% Seriously!
Thanks in Advanced for any proper and mature responses :)
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