I'm a 20 year old canadian addicted to marijuana and porn, the combination of both pretty much eliminated my libido. I now act in such a way that I am pretty sure that my friends think that I'm gay (when high I almost believe that they're right (paranoia)). I'm soon on my third week of nofap and my consummation of cannabis has declined. Now I only fantasize about having some kind of intimacy with a girl.
I'm not bad with women and would definitely not have a hard time getting a girlfriend if I felt like I had a minimum of control over my life/autonomy. If I had my own place I know one or two girls on my facebook that would spend a night with me, whores, am i right..? That would probably end up bad for me but I'd do it in a heartbeat since my desire for sex is trough the roof right now. The thing is that I find it hard to date when I live with my parents who are retired and always home. I feel like a loser that can only feel at ease with other losers. I don't have a car, I don't feel comfortable outside since it's cold as shit, I'm broke, and feel out of options. I don't know if it's worth it to look for a woman who lives by herself so we can have some intimacy. I think that I don't feel man enough to date a fully independent women. I'll move on the other side of the country for the summer and (kinda) want to keep nofapping until then but I have 3 day weekends for the next 10 weeks, I spend most of my time in my parents basement and sex is the only thing that I think about.
I've been stuck in this scenario for like two years, the year before that I had a friend with benefits with whom I had regular sex (with some ED episodes). I need to work on myself but it's so much easier to numb myself out of life with drugs and PMO.. I need some help.
Tl;dr: I'm lost in life.
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