What to make of this...

Hi so Im going to try to keep this as short as I can but I need to get this off my chest, In the month of August I moved into a new apartment where I meet my two roommates. The first day I was sitting with one of them on our front porch and we were talking about our lives and sharing stories. It was nice there was no awkwardness between us. As we talked he told me a story about when he was playing basketball he got into a brief confrontation with one of the players and he said the guy got close to his face and my roommate yelled at him and all of a sudden the guy kissed him on the face. I was like thats interesting not thinking too much about it at the time. As the days went on our friendship was increasing to the point it was like I knew him my whole life, we were very touchy always hitting each other getting into play fights all the time that we both start at times. Thought my whole life I have liked girls but had a interest in very very specific guys so naturally I started to have a crush on him, we did everything together go to the gym, play basketball, he would invite me to his family house I quickly was invited into his life. (In the matter of two months) Things would start to get more serious I would sleep on the couch with him I could never fall asleep because of my excitement to be with him. I have never had this feeling towards anyone else I cared and wanted to be in every aspect of his life. I would catch him staring at me when were are with our friends, when we got drunk in the beginning he told me I was someone he always wanted to meet and hugged me. While all this was happening we both were talking to girls, one night he had this girl over and at night came in my room and asked me if I had a condom and I gave him one and he hugged me and I grabbed his ass and we laughed and he went in his room (the next day I saw it unused) One day specially we went to the gym and came about all hot and sweaty I was about to take a shower so I took off everything but my underwear. Right when I was walking to the bathroom he chased me to my room and starts slapping me on my body then goes we need to be on the same playing field and takes everything but his underwear off and we slap fight each other until I push him on to my bed he laid there and played “dead” with his mouth open so I kissed him and he didn’t move so I kissed him again and then hugged him and he smiled I said to him after if you are hitting me because you don't like me or want me to stop just tell me and I will stop right away and he goes no Im in pure bliss… I then got up and had came in my underwear and he goes did you pee yourself and I said no and he laughed and walked out my room. another time he chased me into the kitchen and gridded his ass again me and said I know that was the highlight of your day. He would also rub my head in front of our friends at a restaurant. There was one day I woke up to me sleeping on his arm on the couch. We also would lay in his bed together and he would sit on top of me and grind on me, another time we were laying in his bed and I asked him if he ever had a crush on another guy and he said yeah and we talked more and he said things would get better. By this time I am sitting there thinking is this just us being having a bromance or more? I don't know. Then things got worse out of know where I made his mom a card for her birthday and the next day he completely changed and shut me out and made things very awkward. I think someone questioned him and made him scared so he was trying to push me out. So I wrote him a note saying I had feeling for him and talking about how I knew how he felt being very scared and living in families that except but still would not find it normal so after that he didn’t talk to me about it for weeks until one day he was sick and was laying in the bathroom floor so I came in there and sat with him and he told me things got too real and he kinda looked at me as a brother. (mind you when we laid in bed together I told him I want so answers from you, no labels but take it day by day so I gave him no pressure) we talked more while he rested his head on my foot and told me he doesn't want anything and I reminded him of all those things he said and did to me and acted like he didn’t remember it. and I was like ok thats fine I can get over that. So on I left him another note a few days later saying Im sorry you had to met me and he wrote me this note back saying he didn’t want me to say that. that he was going to work on our relationship like he is with everyone else and if I did have feeling that he was sorry we met too and that low lives would be dumped. He then texted me saying DO YOU UNDERSTAND and I said yes there is no ounce of romance. Throughout all of this we have been more civil and don't touch each other as much but have conversations but mostly when our other roommate is there. He has recently taken my phone for two hours because I told him I wouldn’t hangout with him and our friends and put my phone in his pocket and made me wrestle him for it back and make me touch him. So there is defiantly still something there its just very confusing and I don't know what to make of any of this. I have defiantly left out stuff but does anyone have any advice or input I would greatly appreciate because I have no clue what the fuck is going on.