M[18] I really want a boyfriend but feel like I'll never get one. I have a type, help?

I'm [18,M,Cambodian] I've always been attracted to black guys or sometimes mexicans, it's just how I always was, but i'm attracted to extremely muscular/ghetto people I think they are really funny and they have nice built bodies like extremely chiseled. But like, I'm honestly tired of liking straight guys. People say be realistic, go for your own people, but I am seriously not attracted to other gay guys, I tried it and I'm just not. I'm probably the gayest person you'll ever meet but i'd rather be friends with someone like me than to date me. I kind of want to be the "girl" in the relationship. I really feel like most Mascular black guys wouldn't want to be in a relationship with me, or even fuck me. They're into other black guys and so so. Guys, I'm not good at writing stories like this so i'll just include a link real quick. http://ift.tt/2H3tSpl Like that^ So yeah. So please tell me realistically if I could ever find a gay/bisexual guy like that.