I don’t know

So, basically I live in a country that prohibits being homosexual. Although there’s a large gay community in here but the only way of communication and getting to know your other gay people is through apps like grindr and scruff.. one thing is that I’ve been trying my best to find is a good hook up.. *I don’t have very high picky standards, but i swear my past around 15 hook up in this 10 months couldn’t get worse.. it’s disgusting.. no one is good at what they’re doing.. I can’t find anyone who has a nice mentality or a bit interesting.. I’m really feeling down, you get lonely when you’re just demanding a glimpse of friendship or relationships in a community that’s closeted much.. sorry for taking your time just wanted to let it out.