2016. március 16., szerda

You ever start listening to songs and think "I FUCKING UNDERSTAND NOW"?

So I'm finally doing the whole being gay thing and it's the most terrifying thing in the world and I'm going out with the most attractive dude on the planet (or at least my heart is telling me that and my pragmatic mind is trying to downplay it telling me there's no way the reality could be as amazing as how I'm currently viewing him)But anyway I've only been out with him a few times but we text... constantly. I don't know why I'm sharing that part... I like it though. ANYWAY -- I think this is what love is? I don't know what that feeling is... and I've tried really really hard to not get attracted to anyone since I was like 13 (I have had a lot of "girlfriends" that I didn't particularly enjoy though). I'm trying to avoid saying the word love though... that seems scary as fuck to me.... I feel like I'm rambling, but my point: I suddenly now relate every lyric and every TV show and every movie and every book and every article and every motherfucking cloud or rain-droplet to him. But for the songs especially I just listened to them and sometimes I could relate to some lyrics or something, but now I listen to some stuff and I FEEL LIKE I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND why some songs were written. Like Hadaway "What is Love" was fucking delightful nonsense a few months ago and now it's like something that I can understand.It's probably still nonsense, but it feels that way now.

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