19, Reserved and Uncertain. Help?

Like any good male, red-blooded, middle-class American, I started watching porn around age 11 or 12. Let's start there. After several weeks of the straight stuff, I decided to see if I'd like gay porn. I was surprised to find that I did. Maybe it was because there was no piercing squealing or over-aggressive slamming; maybe it was because I was building a kind of tolerance that needed to be overcome; maybe it was because, on some level, this was what I wanted. Before I knew it, I was watching gay porn exclusively. Fast-Forward to now. I've had 1 date (girl; we decided to just stay good friends; honestly it was the right choice), 2 'first' kisses (also girls: Truth or Dare and in a play), and 0 relationships. In high school, I wrote off relationships as extra work with no real payoff. A partner was a burden to be kept happy. And honestly, I didn't feel 'that way' about any of my classmates, male or female, so why bother? Now that's not to say I didn't fantasize; I have a sex drive. And no, I don't think I'm 'aro' or whatever. I just haven't felt serious romantic attraction for anyone I've ever meet, just one or two puppy-love crushes. I find it harder and harder to picture myself having a real bond with someone, just fucking them. Have I not found 'the one'? Does 'the one' even exist? Are my standards too high? Am I really looking for someone in the first place, or is this just theorizing? And if I did find someone, would I be dating them because I cared about them, or just to prove to myself and everyone that I can get a partner and have a definite sexuality? If I was gay, would people change the way they look at me? What would my parent think? My friends? Am I straight because I have told myself I am, or gay because of what I watch when no one's around? Now I'm wrapping up my first year of college. Nothing's really changed. My most recent fantasies have been somewhat..softer, about guys like my RA, someone just a little older suddenly revealing what we've both felt. Some way to know for sure that this is what I want... but that's neither here nor there. I still do nothing in real life. So I guess my question, if I had one, would be: Does the fact that I went to gay porn so soon mean that I'm gay? Could gay porn have influenced me early on, and I could be straight? Am I denying my true sexuality because it's convenient, or am I just turned on by this because I've been taught it's "wrong"?Opinions needed. Thanks for reading.