An Interesting Skype Call with a Friend...

Hi all! I'm new to this Reddit, but ah, I kinda wanted to talk about this, but I couldn't do it with the people I know, so here I am!I was skyping with a friend just then. He's gay, and I'm... well, I don't really know my sexuality, whether I'm bi or gay, but I know I am into guys, haha.Where can I start? So this friend of mine, let's call him Bob. He and I play the same competitive video game, that's how we met. We like to fangirl over guys, but there's someone else who plays this game too, that Bob is completely in love with. And it's not just any, "oh, he's so cute!" crush, Bob loves this guy.This guy, let's call him Jeff, is a really nice guy, and is aware that Bob loves him. But, Jeff is straight. Jeff is super cool about it though, he's even promised that he'll take Bob out on a "date" when they meet up at the World Championships for said video game.Like I said, Bob is absolutely and definitely in love with Jeff, but Jeff can't quite love him back. So, we were just skyping a few hours ago. Jeff and a few other friends had just left the call and it was only Bob and myself left. Bob almost breaks out into tears, whimpering how much he loves Jeff. He explains how he wanted to commit suicide before he had met Jeff, but when he met Jeff all of his suicidal thoughts had almost disappeared. We were talking about cuddling in general before, and how it's "goals" (yeah, yeah I know "goals af" is dumb). He says he wants to try cuddling with a pillow, and see how it feels thinking about Jeff like that.I should mention, Jeff is European and Bob is in North America. Bob actually starts crying now, saying how much he just wants to hold Jeff, be with Jeff, hold his hand, kiss him, even though Jeff is straight. Bob said that cuddling with the pillow felt amazing, and that it was making him feel better. Then he suddenly says in a quiet voice, starting to whimper and cry a little more, "[Jeff] will never leave me, right?". I of course reply with "He never would. [Jeff] cares for you". Because he does. Bob's breathing starts to pace, getting quicker and heavier. He was starting to have an anxiety attack. At 4 am in the morning, no one there to comfort him, I almost wanted to cry with him, be there to comfort Bob. My counsellor taught me a "mindfulness exercise" that can calm your nerves if you get an anxiety/panic attack or you start to feel agitated by something. (If you want to know, just ask~)Fortunately, it worked! I also told him to take deep breaths, using a breathing exercise I sometimes use to warm up before singing or playing clarinet.Bob said to me: "it's so weird; I'm feeling so happy, almost in ecstasy, but I'm so, so sad. I want [Jeff] so bad." I wasn't sure what to say, but I just said softly, "I know you do. It'll all be fine, before you know it, it will the world championships. You'll see [Jeff] there."At this point, it didn't feel like time was moving, but it also felt like time was rapidly moving. It was so... indescribably interesting, I suppose. After "a certain amount of time" passed, Bob's breathing started to increase once more; "I want him so bad, [my name]. I want him. I'd jump in front of a gunman to save him. I-I want him to be by my side as I die... I can feel him right know, as my pillow. I can feel his legs, I'm resting on his chest. ... I just gave him a kiss. I can picture it, when we meet. ..." And he goes on to describe when they meet, as I asked to keep his mind off other slightly depressing thoughts. He ends his description, with, "[Jeff] will never leave me, right?!" "Of course not, you know [Jeff] cares about you" I reply. This is where I was shocked: "And you'll never leave me, too?" I thought I misheard him, so he repeated himself. "Never." At this point, I was ready to cry.This bit may or may not be lewd to some people, don't read it if you don't like stuff related to guys' "down there" Just hold your mouse over this, I don't know how to format, ahh ;o;Just an hour ago, he fell asleep with "Jeff" by his side, probably crying on the inside, torn between happiness and sadness, anxious whether Jeff or I would leave him. Even as I'm typing this, I'm feeling happy/sad too.So yeah, that was the past 6-3 hours of my life. It's the most interesting thing that's happened to me so far, these school holidays. If I haven't been clear on something, or I haven't done something I shouldn't have, please let me know!! I will gladly explain/ clear anything up I'm too tired to proof readThank you for your time today. I just wanted to talk about this, but I certainly couldn't have talked about it with the people who play the video game, or my parents. Who would probably flip if they knew I wasn't straight, hahaha