I [22/m] fell in love w/ a good friend [20/m] and don't know how to deal w/ it at all

I pretty much wrote this off the top of my head. ^{Lack of structure & wall of text included, sorry.}

So I’m friends w/ this one guy, we’ve known each other for roundabout 2 yrs at this point and I guess we’re pretty close friends. We hang out a lot, chat a lot, share a common circle of friends, have common interests, share a taste in music and personal preferences (like we both pretty much ignore the superbowl b/c we both don’t care about sports and whatnot). I guess what I’m trying to say is we’re pretty much compatible.

We’re also both gay, but not in a relationship. And that’s what driving me crazy.

And here’s the deal: Like I said before we’re not, well, dating. And never have. I once (bout a year ago) sort of told him (piss-drunk, but he wasn’t exactly sober either) that I have some sort of crush on him. I, being as drunk as a pirate who managed to get a hold of a lot of rum, don’t even remember how I said that or what his reaction was. We somehow stopped talking for about a month after that but that’s about it. No aftermath.

And I really don’t know what to do. The point is, this whole situation really, really drags me down emotionally. I’ve just spent the entire weekend w/ him (we were visiting some friends) and after we went separate ways (hug included) I always feel pretty god darn awful. Like I managed to lie in bed and think about him & this whole thing at more than one occasion over the past months, feeling frustrated and absolutely miserable. I know it sounds incredibly childish but I guess the bottom line is that I don’t just have a crush on him but rather kinda fell in love. And considering the fact that this seems to be sort of one-sided that sucks pretty damn hard.

So after writing this novel, I actually seek advice on what to do here: How do I get over this? I mean, yeah, most teenage-crush-stories that may sound a lot like this sort of dissolve after a couple of weeks/month, but neither am I a teenager nor do I seem to loose any feelings. This crap has been going on for 2 yrs now and starts to get utterly depressing. I originally didn’t want to use this term but yeah, if this continues, “depressing” is an appropriate description.

I’ve thought about just confronting him somehow, but I really don’t know how and am really afraid to do that. Wouldn’t know how to phrase a thing. And even if he’d just confirm that he couldn’t imagine a relationship rather than a friendship, I’d need a strategy to get over it anyways.

Also “meeting new people” or dating is absolutely no option for me. I tried that but I just lost any interest in seeing someone else.

tl;dr: Have pretty close friend w/ whom I spend a lot of time; I fell in love; seems to be one-sided; get depressed; not sure what to do; asking y’all