I [18, M] am afraid to come out to my best friend of 6 years [18, M] as gay.

So I have known him for 6 years, and we've instantly become best friends. I realized that I was defenetly gay at the beginning of high school, maybe a bit earlier (this is my 4th and final year of highschool) and still haven't come out. I still had a few (4) GFs, but it was nothing serious, because I knew that that wasn't what i wanted.

Anyways, my best friend and me have become really close over the years and his friendship means a world to me (and vice versa) because we were always there for each other in hard times and never left the other one out... He makes me happy and I can't imagine those years without him...

Our relationship has always been a bit different from all other relationships of that kind... We have almost no boundaries when it comes to (non sexual) physical contact. For example, whenever he gets excited he hugs me, sometimes even kisses me (on the cheek) (again, viceversa too). In class (we sit together) we are always somehow touching, sometimes its just the arm over the shoulder-thing, sometimes its just our legs touching, but its always there...

He has so far only been with girls but he's never been disguisted by gays or anytning (thats a normal thing here where we live). Actually, people have told us multiple times how gay we look, and he would always say stuff like 'hell yea this my babe' or 'yea, we're boyfriends' and stuff like that. He does support gay rights... Sometimes (often) we joke about being gay and start doing shit like grabbing each others asses and so on, and neither one ever feels uncomfortable, so there's that.

We always tell each other everything, never lie to each other, and really we really love each other to death... Just a few days ago I texted him I was feeling kinda shitty (it was like 10:30pm) and he fucking came to my house to see whats wrong, so yea, he really cares and so do I.

Anyways, I'm afraid to tell him because I'm afraid of losing him, he means a world to me and I don't think I could survive losing him... But I feel I need to be honest to him about this, so I'm kindof in a dilemma...

TL;DR Me and my best friend are really really close. He is (he says thay he's) straight, and I'm gay. I still haven't come out to him (or anyone for that matter) but i want to...