I just discovered this sub. Thank God because I really need to vent and get some outside opinions.
We got married December 2013 and he's a bit older than me so I foolishly thought, "YAY, a grown man who knows his way around the bedroom." Yeah, no. We were already engaged the first time we had sex. I was so fucking excited for a night of wild lovemaking and incredible pleasure. I feel him enter me and literally 15 seconds later, he cums. The feeling of going from 100mph to 0 cannot even be put into words. SO many things went through my mind... is this a fluke? Is this going to be the rest of my life? How can this even happen?? Of course he says, "you just feel so good I couldn't help myself." So I hold tight to that explanation and think, "okay, we can go again in a little while." NOPE. He can't get hard again, he says. Okay... well then quantity over quality right? Negative. He doesn't really want to have sex all that often. Certainly not every day and DEFINITELY not more than once a day, much less multiple times a night. In the beginning I was really upset by this and we would have fights all the time. I was just used to my significant others constantly coming onto me, like I couldn't get away from it. And now that I am married, I can't get my husband to want me at all. At first I thought it was my fault... didn't know how it could be my fault but I thought it was. Now I realize that it's him. He's been tested for Low T and his results come out normal. One time I even asked if he was gay... he got really offended. He doesn't look at porn because he says he doesn't like that either. So a close friend of ours recommended foreplay and sex toys? He doesn't like sex toys. Doesn't want to try them. We try foreplay and he does pretty well with his hands, but when he enters me after about a minute, he's done. He's never made me orgasm and I won't put the blame completely on him because it takes a little bit of effort to make me come, but still. I've been making myself orgasm my entire life and for once I would like it to come from someone else. We just ended our longest period of not having sex, which is a little over three weeks. I know that's probably not a long time to most but dear God we are still practically newly weds, I'm 25, I WANT TO HAVE SEX ALL THE TIME!! Anyway, we go out and have a nice Mexican dinner with some margaritas and he tells me he wants to have sex tonight. Thank God. We get home, a minute or so into sex, he cums but tries to hide it. He keeps going because he knows that I will be upset, but I feel myself getting extremely wet and I know it's done. I pull away and go to the bathroom to wash up and he asks me, "Are you mad?" "No, disappointed." "Why?" "Because I was just getting started!" He kisses me on the shoulder and I just start crying out of the blue. I've been suppressing it for the past 6 months. I just couldn't keep it in anymore. Is this my entire life? I'm not even at the peak of my sexual prowess! And I can't vent out my frustration because then I'll hurt his feelings because he swears he can't help it. I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. Stuck between a rock and a hard place. Anyway, he ignores me. I leave the bathroom and get back into bed. He goes downstairs to watch the game and I go to sleep. End of story. I'm sorry, I feel a bit scattered brained. I'm just sort of writing this as it comes to me. I have no idea what the fuck to do.
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