I’m very nervous.

I’m a bit drunk so I’m going to try to keep this as short as possible. Two years ago after being closeted for close to 25 years I decided to get on Tinder and I started talking to a cute guy with a great personality, a great job and a great future but I ended up dating a cute guy with a drug problem.After two years of mental anguish, drug abuse and then becoming clean I ended up leaving this kid. I found myself in a much better place so I decided to get back on tinder and then I saw him. I saw the promising guy I found two years ago and we had both swiped right on each other.After some talking we met up in person and my oh my is he more attractive in person. He dresses nicely, his voice is to die for, his smile is the cutest thing ever and he is normal. Like a normal human being and we share so much in common.We’ve went on two dates so far and each time I was nervous. Butterflies in my stomach up until I see him and we start talking. I fucked up so bad two years ago when I dropped him for the junkie. I fucked up dropping him for the person who made me miserable for so long.I hope I don’t fuck this up. I’m in this for the long haul. I’m going to be who I am when I’m with him but I’m going to respect his feelings and his need to take things slowly.Wish me luck everyone. I feel he is way out of my league and I’m going to need as much luck as possible.