2015. március 31., kedd

Fucking fuming right now, found out my parents are trying to basically poison the mind of an innocent trans male.


So my parents are fucking shitty, I'm mtf and still under their roof. Growing my hair out, hiding makeup etc, saving money until I can move out. They know I'm trans when I came out at 16 (18 now), they wanted to take me to a pray the gay away counselor and kept reinforcing "oh you look so handsome" and all this bullshit saying I'm not transgender or blaming it on a sexual assault I experienced years ago.


Well, they've been "mentoring" this 'girl' who's in this childrens home. Ever since I met this person I knew he was trans male, the way he dressed, the way he talked, the way he constantly said how much he hated dresses and loved wearing suits at work, it was so obvious to me. But I didn't know my parents knew.


Tonight during dinner discussion, my aunt mentions something about crossdressing and he gets up from the table and leaves, and my mom whispers "don't say that, she is having gender issues".


I had to fucking control myself from not lashing out in anger right there, it clicked right then and there. My parents are trying to reinforce this innocent person into thinking they're wrong for being transgender just like me and trying to reinforce them into thinking "oh you're female" due to all of the comments they consistently make saying "oh you're so pretty" and buying him dresses and swimsuits etc. To do this shit to me is one thing, but to seek out and try to subliminally bully a kid into ignoring their inevitable gender identity is fucked up on so many levels.


I am so fucking pissed off beyond belief, I wanted to puke. I really fucking loathe this family right now. I don't know whether I should confront my parents or what. I need second opinions.



Did you here about the gay midget?


He finally came out of the cabinet



[Insane Request] I lost my roommate's treasured DILDOKING lighter. Does anyone know where I could get one?

Az összesítés nem áll rendelkezésre. A bejegyzés megtekintéséhez kattints ide.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S fan theory


What if all the characters from F.R.I.E.N.D.S are imagined by six high schoolers as older versions of themselves. In some episodes, they look back at their teenage selves, and maybe that's the friends imagining themselves looking back on how they used to be/are now. Phoebe talked about her childhood on the show, saying how she was poor and had no parental guidance, with her mother killing herself. It would make sense that a kid who's mother just died would imagine herself in the future as a funny, wise and spiritual person who can look back on the past with ease. In one episode, Phoebe goes down to a beach area with the rest of the gang to find her father, but instead discovers her real mother. A teenager with a dead mother would certainly imagine a future in which another, true mother is discovered. Ross is described as a nerd in his past and so it's easy to think that as a teenager he would want to see himself as a museum worker, but also a dude with a lot of friends and a dramatic relationship with Rachel, his crush. Rachel is portrayed in flashback episodes as the popular, prissy, rich girl who relies on Daddy for everything. She would imagine herself as a strong, working, healthy women who does most things herself and doesn't need her overbearing father anymore. Monica is a fat teenager, so hence she sees herself in the future as skinny and independent. Monica would channel her love of eating into her future self having a career in cooking. As the years past, Monica also realises she wants to settle down and have a partner, and that is where Chandler comes in. Little is known in the show about Chandler's past, but it is revealed his parents divorced when his father became gay. In the first seasons of F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Chandler imagines a world where his parents are not involved and where he is funny and respected. In later seasons, Chandler feels a need to rekindle his relationship with his father and mother. This is shown in one episode, where Chandler and Monica visit Chandler's father's strip club and ask him to come to their wedding. Next to nothing is known about Joey's past, but perhaps he likes himself just the way he is because a food-loving teenager might imagine a future of fun, food and good friends, complete with an all-to-easy job. Joey is seen as funny and cute, but also determined in many episodes. It is also shown that Joey has a strong connection to his parents and family, which means the teenage Joey imagining this loves his family.


In season 10, when the show ends, we see the group talking in the apartment, which Monica and Chandler are moving out of. The end of the show reprents where the teens want to be in life, their ultimate goals. Ross wants Rachel and a job in his area, Rachel wants a nice guy and a good job Joey just likes things how they are, Monica wants kids and a good husband, Phoebe wants a nice guy to be married too and a good place to live, Chandler wants to beat his fear of commitment and he wants someone who really loves him. The end of F.R.I.E.N.D.S is also the end of senior year for the teens, meaning now they have to face the real world and find out if they will become who they imagine themselves as.



OR

The ending of F.R.I.E.N.D.S is when the teens finally grow up and their actual life is nothing like the one they imagined.



Andrew Cuomo Bans Non-Essential State Travel To Indiana Because Of New Anti-Gay Law

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I must have misunderstood ship terminology in EVE all these years, this guy obviously knows better.


Calfis > what kind of subcaps can you fly


Arsenal420 > killed curse wit my drake


Arsenal420 > best solo kills i got


Arsenal420 > 0


Arsenal420 > i dont fly caps yet


Arsenal420 > the proteus i let him scan me out cus i wanted to kill him :P


Calfis > subcaps


Calfis > like loki


Calfis > ishtar


Calfis > etc


Arsenal420 > those are not subcaps from my knowledge


Calfis > sub-capitals


Calfis > meaning they are not caps


Arsenal420 > Thanatos


Arsenal420 > thats a sub cap


Calfis > no thats a cap


Arsenal420 > i played 4 years ago thats what they called em


Calfis > cap = capital


Calfis > subcap = sub-capital


Calfis > u have to admit it makes sense in english


Arsenal420 > ill have to google it : P


Arsenal420 > anyways


Calfis > whats ur primary language?


Arsenal420 > english


Calfis > u from USA?


Arsenal420 > bc can


Arsenal420 > canada


Calfis > oh canadian eh


Calfis > well I'll have to see ur skill set when u put ur api in the form


Calfis > we require a set of fleet ships as well as bubblers


Arsenal420 > for? if i can kill a curse with my drake is that not good enough?


Arsenal420 > ill fly drakes and onyxs mainly and some maybe a hawk


Arsenal420 > and orthrus


2015.03.31 23:32:44


Kinky Panda > u guys rejected my app even tho i talked to whats his face lol u guys r funny ill jus go with another 0.0 alliance lool?


Kinky Panda > cya around!


Angela Moon > mmkay. bye o/


Calfis > later man


Kinky Panda > missing out i can kill curses with my drake :)


Calfis > be sure to tell them how capitals are subcaps etc etc


Angela Moon > lol


Kinky Panda > will do noob been playing longer then u


Calfis > I dont think ur helping ur argument with that bit


Angela Moon > haha, been playing longer doesnt mean you have the brain for it ;)


Derek Xallen > not sure if troll


Kinky Panda > what argument u guys rejected app wus trying to be nice


Calfis > Eric, it isn't this is why its so sad


Derek Xallen > oh


Kinky Panda > and ur only from 09


Kinky Panda > same time noob check times before u talk


Calfis > yes and even I know that in english subcaps = sub-capitals, dont even need to play eve


Angela Moon > that was funny :D


Calfis > man I almost thought we would have to kick him from channel :D


Angela Moon > N00b, he is not in channel. jeez..


Angela Moon > haha


Calfis > i was late :P


Calfis > wait he is in channel Arsenal420


Calfis > his alt


Angela Moon > nice


Angela Moon > more rage incoming?


Calfis > recovery confirmed


Angela Moon > so, what do i have to do, to be not noobish and important in nulli? can i join?


Calfis > Arsenal420 wtb Eve-O forums post explaining how subcaps = capitals and caps = sub-capitals


Angela Moon > lol


Angela Moon > i would read


Calfis > please publically humiliate me


Angela Moon > i need to learn more


Arsenal420 > lol idiots XD im joining a dif alliance


Arsenal420 > u guys are wanks anyways


Angela Moon > aaw


Angela Moon > so mad


Arsenal420 > dont even know what subcaps is lol!@


Arsenal420 > not mad ur jus gay :)


Angela Moon > no please tell us


Calfis > could u tell us again for the record what a subcap is?



[M] Am I really gay? [Ramble] [Recount of an experience] [Confusion] [X-post from GWA]


There's not much to say here. The audio explains it all.



I need more mature advice from you guys


Hello friends of LGBTYA,


I am currently using a throwaway account because I am a really shy person, even when it comes to anonymous things.


I am currently a 20 years old openly gay man with a straight best friend, which I spend a lot of time with, even if we don't do the same things in life (as for me, I am a full time worker and he's a student). I know I fell in love with this guy in the past, but after taking some distance with him, I felt pretty confident that my crush on him was gone. Fuck me sideways, in the mean time, my best friend (we'll call him jay) started going to the gym and grew into a beautiful man in the last two years.


What I thought was gone, came back, as he is even in my mind when I am jerking off. It is annoying to the highest point because we do get really close sometimes (for example, watching a movie together, he would let me cuddle him) and I have a hard time resisting my sexual pulsions. He feels it, but he's been emotionally broken and lonely in the last months, so he hasn't really pushed me back.


I am currently happy with the relationship I have with him, aside from the fact that I cannot really go further. I appreciate that the things he does for me, but it cannot continue, because at some point we are going to hit a wall.


Aside from taking distance from him (which hasn't worked well last time), I simply cannot see anything to "fix" my problem. To me, ending the relationship is not a solution, as we've been building it for years. I know he appreciates me as a close friend, so do I, but I fear the day he finds a new girlfriend. It is a ticking timebomb.


Any comment or advice would be appreciated.


Sincerely,


maybegayz



Indiana: A Funeral For The Anti-Gay Movement

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Indiana's governor seems to have a long history of opposing gay rights

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Safe to assume 605 will be Jeff-centric?


I might be a little off base, but from my perspective, one by one everyone has had their share of focus for this season except Winger.



  • 601: Grounded-Abed vs. Meta-Abed / Frankie's intro

  • 602: Britta for the win! / Elroy's intro

  • 603: Annie's quasi bottle episode (v2.0)

  • 604: Gay Dean, Gay Dean / Chang Morita


Is 605 Jeff's turn?



Indiana's governor seems to have a long history of opposing gay rights

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Indiana's governor has a long history of opposing gay rights

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Coming out as gay at Chinese New Year

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Crazy christians in my family make me wanna gag


I've had a really weird couple of days, and some realizations that I just need help with.


Yesterday, I left my son with my stepmom, who I think has FLEAS, she definitely had an Nmom without a doubt. She has her moments, and is actually quite selfless, but she is a very negative person and also is racist, homophobic, judgmental, and overly religious. She has watched my son while I have attended school since he was 10 weeks old, he is now 9 months. Ps. My dad is a complete enabler, he is the kindest, most loving man ever. He would never turn his back on me or my brother for any reason, ever, and he has always loved me, even when I was a real pill.


Here is what happened. The awful discriminatory law in Indiana that just passed (?) was being discussed on the news. Stepmom says something about religious freedom, and I made the mistake of asking her what she meant. She went into a long rant about "the gays" and it was really fucking dumb (i.e. comparing homosexuals to those who have sexual relations with animals. She is fucking dumb.). I said, "well thank you for being so candid, and I would love it if I could be candid with you. Is that ok?" Then I said, " Everyone is entitled to religious freedoms, but when you attempt to discriminate against and alienate people, that isn't a right, and I respectfully disagree with what you are saying." She went on to say that she would disown her only son if her were to tell her he was gay. I said, "Again, I am glad you feel you can be so honest with me. I'd like to be honest as well. Having a mother who I knew would reject me if I was a certain way was very painful for me. There is nothing that my children could do that would cause me to reject them." Then I turned to my dad, who of course, had been silent this whole time, and said. "and dad, I know that you would never reject me and that you would always love me no matter what." Stepmom tried to say that your relationship with god is more important than anything. I said, "Again, I have to respectfully disagree."


Before I left, my dad met me in the hallway and gave me a huge hug, and told me I will always be his baby girl. Why does he have to may aholes?


Then, I went to visit Nmom today. We are LC, I see her about once every couple of months. My fucking ultraNaunt was there. We went out to eat. The visit went well, (Nmom behaves herself when we are LC for the most part.) but as we were walking back from a restaurant, they were discussing a funeral they had been to, saying that it was very, very, cold. The service had been held at the grave site, despite the -20 windchill. I asked why they hadn't had the service inside. My Naunt responded, "He wasn't a christian, there was nothing to say."


Fucking WOW.


So, here I am. I have two very religious sides of my family, who reject people for so very little. They reduce people to something so inconsequential, and claim that is all there is to them. I have realized two things.




  1. I am very wary about having my children grow up with these kinds of ideals around them. Luckily, my husband has a big family, and our children have many good influences to be around.




  2. I have broken the cycle! I am not my mother! My greatest fear in life has been quieted. I would NEVER reject my child for ANY reason. And I would never reduce a person to a label.




Insight and support are welcome!



TIFU by trying something new


So I was alone this morning with nothing to do and I felt in the mood but wanted to try something a little different. I heard stories from my friends about guys who suck their own wieners. at first I thought that was just gay as hell but my friend pointed out how jerking your own self off isn't considered gay so why would that be? It was a pretty good point so I decided to go to my living room to give it a try. As a kid I was always pretty flexible so this was basically no challenge at all, the only problem was the fact that I drank tons of water before trying this out. As my face reached closer to my wiener I puckered up my lips for that extra reach.. moments later I felt my gut clench a bit too hard.. this is where I knew I fucked up.. I ended up pissing like a geyser all over my puckered lips. I'll never forget that disgusting but oddly refreshing taste on my lips. My family came home right as it happened and walked in on me with complete terror on their faces. I have never felt so embarrassed In my life.. If only I didn't clench so hard.



NASCAR Decries Indiana Anti-Gay Law

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On responses to the guidelines


I posted the second version of my guidelines in the hopes I would get feedback to further refine, instead I kept receiving the same concerns, rather than any suggestion on what needed to be changed.


1.- We don't want to be told what to do


Then in that case you agree with me, because I want the state to stop telling you don't have the freedom of practice, without any reason for it, but in any case the guidelines keep the practices of responsible zoophiles as they are, the only things that they change, address the concerns of non-zoo's, should they be ignored?


2.- It is ridiculous to believe you would think of regulating love


Then I guess laws requiring a minimum age are unfounded, I guess if I really love someone then I don't have to care if there was consent, or if it was dangerous.


Reasonable laws regulating sexual practices, are common already, we don't special legislation for gay sex, because it is practically identical to straight sex, but the animals we deal here are not legal persons, and therefore we require to acknowledge that, so that we don't end up with absurds trying to make the current legislation fit zoophilia.


3.- The current laws already cover it


No they don't, not a single law mentions sex with animals without banning it, in the best case scenario, we got a free for all due to an existing legal limbo, is that desirable? don't you want cases of abuse persecuted?


Even if they were examples of laws permitting and regulating practice, they wouldn't cross over their own borders, in any case we just create a zoophilia haven, where you actually have to travel in order to comply with law, the guidelines are supposed to get a consensus on what zoophiles want, if they were to get regulated, so that there is a backbone to defend and build upon, for anyone wanting new legislation.


4.- We already are self determined.


Are you? You hide your activities from law enforcement, you cannot go public about it, and there is an stigma that only grows stronger with you living in the shadows, and affects many people to the point of suicide, murder and incarceration.


You are as self determined as the Tibet.


5.- The zeta principles are enough


Then why no one is pushing them to make them actual laws? Could it be because they are poorly written? They use ambiguous concepts, they are redundant and they are oddly specific.


If your law is ambiguous then you create loopholes, loopholes to make abuse easier on a court of law.


6.- Forcing a present third party to be present, violates privacy


You all were pretty much unilateral on your misinterpreting of this point, that was my fault, so I had to edit it to make it clearer:



5c. - From 2f, it is preferable that a third rational party would act as an observer, in order to assist in case of emergency during the act (assist withdrawal).


5c1. - Situations with many unknowns, would require such assistance, in order to comply with sections 4 and 5.



Dog sex is immune to 5c1, since it isn't something many people haven't done already and measured the risks, this only is mandatory for something only very few have tried before, like fisting an elephant.


So it is only recommended for the rest of situations.


7.- The opposition won't change


Is that enough reason to stop trying? Is the opposition immortal? Are there no neutral or ignorant people? Aren't there reasonable people around willing to have their believes reversed? It is merely a non-sequitor.


8.- You are suggesting there are abusers among us


Why? Is banning murder in China, suggesting that chinese are natural murderers? If you agree that animal rape is not okay, then why oppose a legislation that says exactly that?


Not only that, no one of us knows enough about each other, to know if someone is an abuser in secret, it is an scary thought, but it isn't different in any other social context. Sometimes the one who we trust more, the ones who we think we know really well, are the ones that come out committing terrible acts.


9.- I only intent to produce my partner happiness, that should be enough


Good for you, that still doesn't change the fact that we can't tell if you are lying, or that your good intentions were misguided, since we don't even know your definition of happiness, then it is merely an appeal to emotion, acts of inhumanity happen all the time with good intentions.


The law is mostly independent of intentions, when it comes to sexual crimes, it shouldn't be any different.


10.- You are not a zoophile


So...? Isn't that a good thing? I'm willing to go public and push legislation that I consulted with you, shouldn't that be the only important parts? If anything that makes even better publicity of you.


11.- We already know how to take care of ourselves


Then why is it that zoophiles are still being incarcerated? Even if you are very careful all of your life, all it takes is a single mistake for law enforcement to catch you, or worst, a zoophobe. Is that a life worth living? being vigilant about your expressions of love or who is truly your friend.


By creating a system to stay out of the radar of law enforcement, then you open the door for criminals to use the same channels you use.


This basically argues: "Breaking the law is okay as long as you don't get caught."


If zoophilia has nothing immoral about it, then it should not stay in the shadows, we certainly won't get it by tomorrow, but we will certainly never get it if we keep our inactions.


12.- You suggested we should remove the dog's knot


Since then I have learned more about the dog's anatomy and now I understand that there is no reason why we should pursue easy withdrawal over the anatomy. I know fully well, how a removal is inhumane and against what I was proposing.


So sex with a knot should be allowed, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't search for humane alternatives for easy withdrawal.


13.- You created this without our input


The whole point of posting it here was to get your input, the whole structure of the second versions of the guidelines was inspired thanks to this community


14.- You don't care about us


You are right. I care for every single human independent on their opinions. Even murderers have rights, and yours are being taken away.


15.- You only care about your ego


Then why is it I decided to go here and not to the senate? Why is it that I decided to change several things in the guidelines on your own suggestions?


15.- Just go away


Read the rules and you will see a method to achieve it:



Keep in mind that not everyone feels the same way you do in regards to zoophilia, and that is irrespective of whether they are zoos or not. Please respect others and treat them as you wish to be treated. If you wish to complain about a user or the way the subreddit is run,



If you can demonstrate that your disapproval, is not about mere disagreement or hate, then you can get me banned.


All it takes is for you to list your reasons:



  • Reasons why kkllee should leave:


If I cannot find an inconsistency, then I leave on my own regard.



Look out for "Big Gay", everyone.

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TIFU by unwittingly getting picked up by a gay guy…


TIFU….. This happened over the weekend. Drunk, oblivious hetero me did not realize what "come hang out" can mean..


Here's the story: Saturday I went out to the bar with my buddy & his friend. We pre-gamed pretty well: I had a 6 pack, 2 shots & 2 cocktails, & we all ate about 150mg of some really good MDMA. After about an hour we decide to walk to a bar. Actually, our original destination was a nightclub (my buddy's friends idea) but after he revealed it was gay night, we decided a bar would be more fun..


We spend the next few hours drinking, rolling & buying way too many drinks for women at the bar ( Well, I did anyways). I probably had another 5 drinks before closing, 2 Jameson on the rocks, 2 vodka red bulls, & 1 of whatever the round I bought for this girl was. Anyways, my boy leaves with some girl & his friend disappeared, so at the end of the night I find myself out front, drunk, still rolling & by myself.


I had left my bag & keys at the apartment, & was still enjoying the night so I just hung around talking to people. I met two dudes who seemed cool, we talked for a bit & after hearing that I had no idea what I was doing at that point, they invited me to come back to their dorm to hang out. Alright. I thought "why not? It's saturday, I'm partying & I haven't been in a college dorm in about 10 years" so I figure it could be fun. We hail a cab & take the 25 minute ride back to the dorm.


Upon arriving two things happen: 1.) They then decide to inform me that they don't have any money…. Okay… I guess I can cover it, night's still young & maybe it will be worth it. & then 2) We get inside & one of them immediately crashes on the couch. Hmmm, Okay.. I guess there isn't a party going on here tonight after all.


At this point the 2nd kid goes into his room for a few minutes, & comes back out with a giant grin, wearing only his boxers. Looks at me & says "WE should probably go to bed"…..


Alright, I guess I'll just sleep sitting up in this horribly uncomfortable college supplied, dorm room chair. He grumbles, the grin disappears & his whole friendly demeanor fades to one of an unhappy camper. He eats something & is off, leaving me & his passed out friend for the remainder of the night (morning).


I spend a couple hours in the chair, then manage to sleep for two on the floor, before going back to the chair & discovering the mini fridge full of crappy beer next to it. I manage to down 7 of them before people wake up, kid #1 leaves & the once-friendly kid #2 tells me I should probably find a cab back into the city. I happily oblige this time.


I just want to say, I have no issues what so ever with anyone being gay, it's just not my style..


TL/DR: Oblivious, drunk, heterosexual me doesn't realize that "wanna come hang out" can mean something completely different to an eager gay kid.



Gay marriage pioneer chosen to argue Supreme Court case

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There is no war on Christians, but there is a war on gays and it's been going on for DECADES.

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Give me some tips on how to enlighten my heathen friends


So right now my group of friends are split in between the Glorious League Master Race and the Defense of The Losers sub-human race.


My DoTL Friends are so poor that the argument "We can pay to have an advantage over others in this game" doesn't hold up very well, because they can't afford Rito Points.


How do I convert these poor souls? How can I get them to stop worshiping their false god Gay-ben and accept our Chinese Overlords.


I need biased arguments and "proof", these are not your average DoTL Fangays.



I had a vivid, incredibly realistic dream about killing someone I personally know


For obvious reasons I'm going to change the names of the people involved in this.


Me and my girlfriend just started college and university in August last year. After high school, it was sort of a relief for both of us to have our own separate groups of friends, but that's not to say we didn't become friends with each other's groups. In my group of friends, we've got a gay transgender emo, a tattoo-obsessed gamer girl, a guy roughly my age with social anxiety, and another guy who's main sort of gimmick is that he wears a hat all the time and doesn't eat much except breakfast cereal. Now, in my girlfriends group, we have a foreign exchange student (Allison), a guy who is basically like a human-database for Marvel comics (Kyle) (ask this guy anything to do with Marvel, he knows the answer), an engaged couple who don't look a day over sixteen but are actually 21 and 22 (Lindsay and Matt), and finally Derek. Derek is a cunt. In every sense of the word, Derek is a cunt. I think so. My girlfriend thinks so. Allison, Kyle, Lindsay and Matt think so. Why? Well kiddie's lemme tell ya.


Derek is not only a cunt, but he's a neck-beard cunt. I'm assuming you've all heard of neck-beards. Imagine that, but whinier, more opinionated, more self-centered, more misogynistic, more unhygienic, and just overall, more of a punchable pile of shit. I mean sure, he does have some legit problems to deal with in his life, like acid reflux, anxiety, dealing with his mother's cancer diagnosis, shit like that. However, while that is something we can sympathize with, it's not a fucking excuse to treat your own friends like shit. It's not an excuse to hold my girlfriend up against a wall and try to forcefully kiss her (she fought him off, don't worry). It's not an excuse to whine like a little bitch just because Allison doesn't want to see you naked. It's not an excuse to brag that you're going to ask 3 different girls on dates, in the same day, over facebook. It's not an excuse to call Lindsay a bitch because she won't leave her fiance for you. It's not an excuse to be a passive aggressive dickhole to me and Matt just because we're going out with the girls you want to fuck. It's not an excuse to skip an entire week of classes just because of ONE anxiety attack, that you had on the weekend. It's not an excuse to butt in when we're having a group discussion just to change the topic so that it's about you, no matter how irrelevant whatever the hell you're talking about is.


I honestly have no idea why we put up with Derek, I really don't. He's a waste of sperm. I know that seems harsh, but that's how much this fucker pisses me off. He shows NO regard for other people's feelings or opinions, kicks up a fuss if we don't do things his way, sees women as nothing but sex objects and takes other people's stuff without even asking for it. This guys acts like such a damn child, and I can hardly believe this guy turns 25 this year. I'm 19 and even I'm more mature than that!


So, a couple nights ago, I dreamed I was in a living room. I don't know where. But it was a generic living room: table, tv, couch, couple of chairs, stuff like that. I was on one chair he was on the other, the couch was empty. Neither of us said anything. All we were doing was just watching tv. That's the last things I remember before killing him in the dream. There was no in-between, nothing to trigger me off, all I remember is just watching tv and then standing over him, wrapping my fingers round his fat neck, squeezing the life out of him. It was the strangest dream I've had in my whole life and scared me a lot because it felt real. I felt my hands tense more and more round his throat. I felt the desire to never have to hear him breathe or speak ever again. I felt his eyes say what his mouth couldn't, as they pleaded for mercy. His hands scrambled in any direction imaginable for a route to escape, the veins in the back of my hands bulged with each tensing grip, his eyes went bloodshot and tear-filled. And I felt fear and panic. The sudden realization that right in front of me is the body of a person that was alive and breathing only a minute ago, the way I am now. The realization that I had taken away something that could never be returned. The realization that an unimaginable amount of people will notice his absence: his friends, his family, his employer, his lecturers.


When I woke up I had no idea what to think of it. I was certainly glad it was only a dream, but was I only glad about it because I woke up while I was panicking about what to do with the evidence? If I'd woken up earlier, before he died, would I have felt disappointed?


TL;DR Derek is a prick and I had a realistic dream that I strangled him to death.



"We don't want schoolchildren turning gay"

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It's a phase! You're too yooooooooung


Hey guys. So I feel I'm coming close to coming out to my parents. But what's holding me back is the fact that every time I tell them about one my gay or bi friends they roll they're eyes or tell me they're going through a phase, they think any LGBT person under 21 is going through a phase or attention seeking.This pisses me off because they claim to be pro LGBT even though they constantly say things like this. And it doesn't help that I also have to tell them I'm genderqueer which I'll have to explain while they probably rip on it! It's really frustrating to think about. Has anyone else been through this?



Would you read erotica about a trans guy?

I've written some short erotica that was pretty well-received, and the boyfriend and I were talking about maybe collaborating on a project with a transguy protag. I was just wondering, is that something gaybros would get down to?

I tried using my dildo last night, it didn't go very well

It was around midnight and i was horny and hadn't tried it so i thought "fuck it sure". Well, i put on a good amount of lube on it and my hole and tried putting it in. Didnt go in right so i tried again. Owwwwwww oh god burning pain. Kept trying, even with more lube. Same thing. Barley got the tip in, and it was hurting the entire time. I probably wasn't relaxing but i don't uh know how. Iv'e tried and once i put the thing in, the pain just shoves everything else out of the way. Any advice?

Whats your best first kiss with someone ?!

I've always wanted to know what others first kisses with others are like, most of my first kisses with others have been rather normal i guess. other than my current boyfriend where i was that nervous and wanting him to kiss me, i kept telling him i was straight, which made him feel like i didn't want him to kiss me, but later on that night our faces were close and facing each other, it was pretty dark and he lent in to kiss me, i moved a bit and we ended up head butting :P , then kissing after a giggle.so yeah, what is your best first kiss/interesting first kiss with someone ?

I hate asking for advice, but...

I was hoping to get some outside perspective and just cathartically type out my situation.I'm almost 31 and have had one boyfriend that lasted about six months. Well last November I met a guy who I can not say enough positive things about. He's tall, beautiful, nice, essentially everything I want in a guy. We met on grindr and he was very clear that he just wanted to hookup. Fine by me, I mean I want more in life but at the time a regular hookup was good enough for me.Well we started hooking up, and then talking daily and hanging out. And then we started just talking daily and hanging out a few times a week. In mid January I got hammered and texted him and told him that I really liked him and that whether or not this goes into a relationship that I was truly thankful that I met him.That kind of freaked him out and he wanted to take a break. So we did for a few weeks, but then we took a trip to a comedy show that we had planned and had a great time. We've hooked up a few times since then too but nowhere near as often as before.So all seems to be going well until a few weeks ago when he essentially doesn't talk to me unless I initiate it. Before he would call me on his way home from work and we'd talk during his drive. I loved this and took it that things were going well. But then it stopped out of nowhere.Last night I was at his house and I'm leaving and we hug like always and I go to kiss him (like I did the last time we hung out) and he turns away. Ok. Red flag. So we sit and talk.He's not ready for a relationship. Still. He says that he likes me a lot as a friend but can't promise anything more than that for now. He doesn't wanna hookup, kiss, cuddle. Just wants to be friends. I tell him that I like him a lot but I see us as more than friends. We do a lot of things that just normal friends don't do and he agreed with me.I tell him that my end goal for us is to be in a relationship. He says he can't promise it but there's a chance it could happen, but he needs time.There's a lot more to this already long story but I'm just not sure what to do. I like this guy that I've known for four months more than anyone else I've ever known. He's special to me and means a whole lot to me. I don't wanna be just friends forever, but I don't want to lose him either. I want to give it a shot but it sucks because it's not when I'm ready.Should I just be friends with him? Should I completely distance myself? Should I look elsewhere (I've tried this and the guys in my area are horrible)? Or should I give him some space, let him take his time to figure things and then hope that we end up in a relationship?

Help Me Come to Terms With Being Gay

If anybody is/was in a similar situation or just has advice that would be awesome.I'm 18, and have only come out to one person, best friend who toon it great. Since then, I've been going back and forth really frequently between being content, and super depressed. By that I don't mean "depressed" in the way society overuses the word, I mean legitimate clinical depression. One of the big things that effects it is my family; it's rediculous how catholic they are. It really sucks with being 18, and high school ending in a few months, because this is ruining what should be a few more awesome months. Its also making the college decision process really difficult. I no longer have much ambition or drive, and without being excited in general I can't get excited about a school. Some advice I've gotten is that it would be best just to start telling more people, but that's the last thing I want to do. I don't really fit into any of the gay stereotypes, and that's made it harder anytime ive contemplated telling other people because I don't want that to be something that defined me as a person.Overall, I think I'm gay, but when I try to accept it, it makes me feel really hopeless. Any advice, or similar experiences would be really appreciated. Sorry if this was scattered or hard to follow.

I want to start seeing someone that I met on a dating app more often, how much is too much?

I've had sex with with this guy two times, the first time it was kinda meh but the second time it felt really special and I've been daydreaming about it. It's only been 4-5 days since then but it feels like it's been a bit longer. Were not friends so likewise there hasn't been any correspondence since. I'm not sure if he enjoyed the sex the second time because I couldn't cum and had trouble keeping my boner, but this was probably due to shyness as I was really turned on. Should I wait a couple of more weeks to send another message? I just don't want to appear desperate. I'm quite busy with school and work but I want to do this again, preferably soon. He probably thinks that I've forgotten about the second time we met up and I went about my daily life as if it'd never happened, but that couldn't be further from the truth. I definitely do not want a relationship and I don't want to send any desperate clingy vibes. But I would like to pursue this FWB thing and I was wondering how I should go about it.

Keith Olbermann: Why The NCAA Must Pull The Final Four Out Of Indiana

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If Indiana's Religious-Freedom Law Isn't Discriminatory, Why Change It? -- Governor Mike Pence and other leaders insist the legislation doesn't allow businesses to deny services to gay people, but with the backlash building, they intend to enact a clarifying bill.

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[NEWS]#Xidel trends on Egyptian social media


After the latest meeting between President Abdel of Egypt and President Xi of China many people have come to the conclusion that the two men are a gay couple. This led to # Xidel trending on twitter and the subreddit for Egypt /r/Egypt was flooded with posts theorizing about the relationship between the two men. After the Chinese government strongly denied the their president being gay on Twitter # RipXidel proceeded to trend on twitter



Indiana Anti-Gay Activist: We Are Victims Of 'Spiritual Warfare'

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I need some advice!


Good day,


I hope this week is treating everyone well—only a few more days until the Easter long-weekend is upon us! I had a question and any advice, comments or suggestions are much appreciated.


First off, I am a young professional (25) and I work for a fairly large company in my home town and a I live in a small city that's about 110,000 people; therefore, the city doesn't have the largest scene, but it is getting better! As you probably know resources are limited, and I have put myself on POF, and Grindr—also attended some of the pride events in summer (I am trying here). I am your classic extrovert and meeting people comes naturally; however, I am extremely shy when it comes to putting myself out there when I happen to like someone, or have a crush—I have had some unpleasant experiences, to say the least. It also does not help that I don't really have any gay or lesbian friends—minus my one dear friend who is a lesbian and quite a bit older than me. My main group of friends consist of straight girls and guys. On another note, I don't declare myself masc or fem, but I do find people have some trouble reading my sexuality. I find some people clue in instantly and some people have no idea.


Nonetheless, it's been hard to meet someone and I ask the question "will this ever happen?!". After a bad experience in 2010 I stopped trying to look for a relationship and just focused on school and my career. Last year I started chatting with a guy on Grindr and it eventually after a few months turned into a coffee meet and things really went well and I was surprised and was taking things slow but we went on an official date before he had to go outta town to visit family and it went great—he tried to arrange another date before he left but our schedules didn't work. But, after that he dropped off the face of the earth and I wondered "What the fuck". Turns out when he was out of town his sister set him up with a guy and they hit it off fabulously and well here I am today—I do want to apologize for this ever so long thread!


MY QUESTION: I have a crush on a guy that works at the organization I am at and I'm not sure how to pursue this. I'm fairly certain he's gay, but I am not 100%. We do not work in the same department, and my role and his do not even cross paths. We do randomly talk and chat and we're both friendly and he seems like he's interested, but I could be reading into it.


I am not sure how to approach this, but I wanna take life by the horns! I just need to ensure I'm respectful and be mindful he is a coworker.


Me: I have always had doubts on myself and I am very critical on myself. I am a chubby guy, but I have been told I hold it well. I always get compliments from older people 45+ that I am incredibly handsome, and I could make any "girl" happy-typically older people always think I'm straight. But I rarely get compliments from people my age—I mean if I wanted to I could get ass, but I want connection. I do know I need to work on my self-esteem and I need to make some changes—I have been working out and trying my best to be healthier—baby steps!


Thank you! I appreciate all your comments, suggestions and feedback.


Take care,



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Rand Paul doesn't use the word "gay rights" because he doesn't "believe in rights based on behavior."

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The church is facing a Jenna Jameson moment


Let us all stand in the way of the gay agenda and be martyred by drowning in their bodily fluids.



Jealous of friends whose parents "came around"


I need to have a bit of a whine, guys.


When I was in high school, I had a pretty tight-knit group of friends who spent pretty much all of our spare time together. They were there for me through thick and thin, they let me cry on them, they were patient with me when I was being an asshole, they were great friends and I was lucky to have them. Looking back, I realized that the reason we were inclined to spend so much time together and were so emotionally intense about our friendships was that we all had shitty parents. My mom was overbearing and manipulative and demanded that I take care of her emotionally, one friend's dad didn't accept that he was gay, another friend's parents were selfish alcoholics, etc. We all kind of accepted this as "normal" and therefore supported each other without questioning much.


Now, we're all grown up and still more or less in touch. Their parents have come around. The one mom got sober and went to therapy, another parent apologized for mistreating his kid, etc. My mom has only gotten worse. I should be happy for my friends, but I am honestly so envious. I'm afraid that they will judge me for being NC because they'll think I should be patient and forgiving like they were. And what's worse, my mom still contacts them. She sends them kind and loving messages. They think she's great. Am I crazy for thinking she's cultivating this image on purpose? If she can be sweet to my friends, why can't she try to make amends to me?



Another new to Madison question. Gay-life and where to meet guys? Places to explore?


I recently moved to Madison for work (not Epic) and wondering where is a good place to meet gay guys and what the gay life is around here. I grew up closeted so never had a boyfriend but now that I am on my own I want to be more outgoing. But as much as I want to be a very outgoing gay guy who goes to dance clubs, I've never been to one, it's not me. I'm more of a shy quiet type so I wouldn't go to Sotto especially by myself. Are there any less extreme places around Madison to go to meet guys? I'm 24 by the way.



I felt too lonely, so I hugged Tristan, my teddy bear, and wept


Today was the day my friend, whom I had spent time with almost 5 nights in a row together to do homework, left for her 3 week vacation, so she left her cat at my apartment. I had feared that the loneliness would take over and put me into another "phase" again while she's gone, because for a couple weeks she had to commute from her parents' place and yea, I really was lonely. That was also a time when my on-and-off (now ex)boyfriend cheated, so that was even worse. But I thought the cat would help so I agreed to cat-sit her cat. Cats, I don't think, though, aren't very understanding. Whenever I try to have a "moment" (the way I do with my dog back at home) he would escape and run away.


Then evening came. The heaviness that I had been feeling got heavier. Lonely, just too lonely. I didn't know what to do. Should I call my neighbors upstairs for some card games? But I have work to do. Maybe I should play a Pixar movie in the background so it'd feel like someone's with me. But I need a hug, a physical hug.


I just needed one. So I grabbed Tristan, my teddy bear whom I named after a gay guy that I had a crush on (I'm female), and hugged him, and wept for few minutes, thinking, "even if I die in this lonely room you'd still be with me." I think I feel better after crying. But I do wish Tristan was human and was my boyfriend; he's well dressed and is even holding a rose c:



17 [M4M] Looking for other gay/bi boys to chat with


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TIL amazing_cocao4612 is Gay !

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How Should I Ask My Friend To Masturbate With Me?


I'm almost 14 and I'm a Bisexual male, and I've known this for over a year now. I figured out that I was Bisexual by, first off, the locker rooms in 7th grade. I also have had crushes on three guys in my school, so I think it's a very safe bet that I am sexually and romantically attracted to guys. I also know that I like girls, but I like guys a lot more. I'm just more comfortable and connected with guys. I came out to my friends at school about a year ago, and I came out to my best friend (who is also almost 14) about three months later (it only took so long because he lives in a different town than I). He is very alright with it. In fact, he is okay with talking about how he masturbates, watches porn, and sexual experiences he's had with girls to me. Not only that, but whenever we have a sleepover, he is unafraid to get half naked in front of me when he gets ready for bed. We also watch porn together. I even asked him, and he said that a lot of people are Gay and Bisexual, and that he doesn't mind. Now, I'm not saying that he wants to have sex with me; I'm just saying that he's comfortable with me. Anyways, I was thinking of masturbating with him on our next sleepover (which is only a few days away), and I was wondering on how I should ask him. I was thinking we should put on some porn, as we usually do on our sleepovers, and see how things go from there. I don't plan on getting into a relationship with him, I just want to experiment with him. I've read that, according to the Hite Report on Male Sexuality, 43% of guys have masturbated in full view of another guy as teens. I've also heard that the guys who masturbated with a friend as a teenager are still friends with these people, and that in most of the cases they are both straight. Not only that, but since he is so comfortable with me, I don't think that he will view us masturbating together as something with a lot of meaning; he'll probably just view it as something boys do at sleepovers. I know what a lot of you people will think, but trust me, I've known him for over 11 years, and I doubt that this'll ruin us. But, I don't want him to feel uncomfortable with me, so can you guys give me some advice on what and what not to do? Do you guys think that my idea of just watching porn with him and seeing how things go from there is good? Please, let me know. I appreciate your help.



Apple Bashes Indiana – But Promotes Business in Countries That Execute Gays

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Help Me Come to Terms With Being Gay


If anybody is/was in a similar situation or just has advice that would be awesome.


I'm 18, and have only come out to one person, best friend who toon it great. Since then, I've been going back and forth really frequently between being content, and super depressed. By that I don't mean "depressed" in the way society overuses the word, I mean legitimate clinical depression. One of the big things that effects it is my family; it's rediculous how catholic they are. It really sucks with being 18, and high school ending in a few months, because this is ruining what should be a few more awesome months. Its also making the college decision process really difficult. I no longer have much ambition or drive, and without being excited in general I can't get excited about a school. Some advice I've gotten is that it would be best just to start telling more people, but that's the last thing I want to do. I don't really fit into any of the gay stereotypes, and that's made it harder anytime ive contemplated telling other people because I don't want that to be something that defined me as a person.


Overall, I think I'm gay, but when I try to accept it, it makes me feel really hopeless. Any advice, or similar experiences would be really appreciated. Sorry if this was scattered or hard to follow.



I need some advice!

Good day,I hope this week is treating everyone well—only a few more days until the Easter long-weekend is upon us! I had a question and any advice, comments or suggestions are much appreciated.First off, I am a young professional (25) and I work for a fairly large company in my home town and a I live in a small city that's about 110,000 people; therefore, the city doesn't have the largest scene, but it is getting better! As you probably know resources are limited, and I have put myself on POF, and Grindr—also attended some of the pride events in summer (I am trying here). I am your classic extrovert and meeting people comes naturally; however, I am extremely shy when it comes to putting myself out there when I happen to like someone, or have a crush—I have had some unpleasant experiences, to say the least. It also does not help that I don't really have any gay or lesbian friends—minus my one dear friend who is a lesbian and quite a bit older than me. My main group of friends consist of straight girls and guys. On another note, I don't declare myself masc or fem, but I do find people have some trouble reading my sexuality. I find some people clue in instantly and some people have no idea.Nonetheless, it's been hard to meet someone and I ask the question "will this ever happen?!". After a bad experience in 2010 I stopped trying to look for a relationship and just focused on school and my career. Last year I started chatting with a guy on Grindr and it eventually after a few months turned into a coffee meet and things really went well and I was surprised and was taking things slow but we went on an official date before he had to go outta town to visit family and it went great—he tried to arrange another date before he left but our schedules didn't work. But, after that he dropped off the face of the earth and I wondered "What the fuck". Turns out when he was out of town his sister set him up with a guy and they hit it off fabulously and well here I am today—I do want to apologize for this ever so long thread!MY QUESTION: I have a crush on a guy that works at the organization I am at and I'm not sure how to pursue this. I'm fairly certain he's gay, but I am not 100%. We do not work in the same department, and my role and his do not even cross paths. We do randomly talk and chat and we're both friendly and he seems like he's interested, but I could be reading into it.I am not sure how to approach this, but I wanna take life by the horns! I just need to ensure I'm respectful and be mindful he is a coworker.Me: I have always had doubts on myself and I am very critical on myself. I am a chubby guy, but I have been told I hold it well. I always get compliments from older people 45+ that I am incredibly handsome, and I could make any "girl" happy-typically older people always think I'm straight. But I rarely get compliments from people my age—I mean if I wanted to I could get ass, but I want connection. I do know I need to work on my self-esteem and I need to make some changes—I have been working out and trying my best to be healthier—baby steps!Thank you! I appreciate all your comments, suggestions and feedback.Take care,

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Does this bother anyone else?


When people looking for fics say "No Slash please I'm not homophobic or anything". Today I saw a post and the OP said "No Slash. Im not homophobic or anything but I don't want to see characters I like being gay"(not an exact quote but that's what they said). I realize many of you disagree because you're the ones who do it but as long as you're not masturbating while you read it why does it matter if its slash or het? Same thing for "No het" fics requests but I doubt that ever happens.


Edit: Im not going to fix the quote as I don't want to point fingers at the person who did it.



Gay refugees from ISIS

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'Gay-bashing' murderer and paedophile get married in prison

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GenCon halts Indianapolis Expansion plans, possibly hints at breaking contract


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Updated statement today, with a couple key take aways.


Governor Pence has stated that he believes the outcry against this law is based upon a misunderstanding. We respectfully disagree with this position. A significant portion of Gen Con attendees identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender, and we are reading that some members of our community feel unsafe traveling to Indiana, subsequent to the passage of the RFRA law. We understand this sentiment, and will act to support safety.


And..


. We believe that freedom from discrimination is a fundamental human right. Until Gen Con has received legally sound assurances that Indiana will support these rights, we are halting our plans to expand Gen Con into Lucas Oil Stadium, and plans for further expansion into other hotel convention spaces.


Considering that the convention has experienced double digit growth the last five years yearly (straining the area to the limits and beyong), this is taking a hit to their pocketbook to make a statement. They do say GenCon 2015 will "be held as scheduled".. but the statement seems to hint that future years aren't as set in stone as previously believed, that if "We want GenCon to stay in Indiana" folks need to work to get the RFRA repealed.


Not bad. I'm sure a lot of folks would still prefer they leave immediately and entirely (which I consider not realistic, because it would basically kill GenCon), but this is stronger then what came out first.



Report: Germanwings Co-Pilot Surfed Gay Porn And Suicide Websites Before Crash

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The gay bar near where i live does their own version of Mormon General Conference. I found this in my driveway this morning. As an exmormon, I thought it was pretty fucking funny.

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Indiana Governor Stunned By How Many People Seem to Have Gay Friends

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A close friend of mine is missing, but it's more than meets the eye. I have no idea what to do, and I need suggestions please.

Hey guys,TL;DR at the bottom.This is a throwaway account because complicated. A close friend of mine who I have known for over 10 years (we dated briefly at the very beginning but nothing really came of it, we remained close friends) has suddenly stopped talking to me, and this is highly unusual for this person. Typically we have an ongoing text chat with a few messages back and forth every day about pretty much everything, in addition to seeing each other at least once a month for an extended visit. My friends are my family, and I go out of my way to treat them like that and make sure they know I appreciate them.He moved to a new flat (I didn't yet have the address) at the beginning of this month, and talked to me by text several times after moving in. He sent some photos of the inside of the place and the view in the middle of the night when I was sleeping. When I woke up I sent him a message back making some comment on the flat and all that, and everything seemed fine.4 weeks ago he stopped responding in the middle of a conversation.I didn't get too upset right away because we usually have long-delay back and forth chats with each other, and assumed this was no different. But then several days went by, and then a week. I have tried calling (rings several times and goes to voicemail, so it's on?), texting (never read) and emailing, with none getting a response whatsoever.He is in I guess you could call it an open relationship, I am in a LTR. Occasionally he would stay over with my BF and I in our apartment, and sometimes we would all mess around. This does not happen every time. The last time we both saw him (a few weeks before he changed addresses) there was no obvious indication of anything amiss.He (to me/us anyway) has simply vanished. He has no social media accounts, no alternate contact information, I have no idea of his current employer (he changed a few months ago) and we have no friends in common. Making matters worse, my phone was damaged by water and I lost all of my conversation history with him. So I can't look back over our conversations for more information than I remember.I have called all hospitals in the area, and he is not admitted to any hospital nor do any have an unknown patient matching his description. He has family in the city (of several million) of a different last name (which I don't know, and have no way of reaching), so I would assume someone would have reported him missing.I don't know how I let this happen, but I have no alternative way of getting in touch with him. For reasons I can't get into, I would prefer not to (but I will if I have to) refer this to the local police. My best friend, the one who I would ask for advice, seemingly dropped off the face of the earth. I have no idea what to do, and I would really appreciate any suggestions.Thanks guys.TL;DR: My intimate friend of 10 years uncharacteristically just stopped talking during a conversation and has seemingly dropped off the face of the earth. I am worried and have no idea what to do.

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Does this bother anyone else?


When people looking for fics say "No Slash please I'm not homophobic or anything". Today I saw a post and the OP said "No Slash. Im not homophobic or anything but I don't want to see characters I like being gay"(not an exact quote but that's what they said). I realize many of you disagree because you're the ones who do it but as long as you're not masturbating while you read it why does it matter if its slash or het? Same thing for "No het" fics requests but I doubt that ever happens.


Edit: Im not going to fix the quote as I don't want to point fingers at the person who did it.



Gay refugees from ISIS

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'Gay-bashing' murderer and paedophile get married in prison

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GenCon halts Indianapolis Expansion plans, possibly hints at breaking contract


http://ift.tt/1IL1aEF


Updated statement today, with a couple key take aways.


Governor Pence has stated that he believes the outcry against this law is based upon a misunderstanding. We respectfully disagree with this position. A significant portion of Gen Con attendees identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender, and we are reading that some members of our community feel unsafe traveling to Indiana, subsequent to the passage of the RFRA law. We understand this sentiment, and will act to support safety.


And..


. We believe that freedom from discrimination is a fundamental human right. Until Gen Con has received legally sound assurances that Indiana will support these rights, we are halting our plans to expand Gen Con into Lucas Oil Stadium, and plans for further expansion into other hotel convention spaces.


Considering that the convention has experienced double digit growth the last five years yearly (straining the area to the limits and beyong), this is taking a hit to their pocketbook to make a statement. They do say GenCon 2015 will "be held as scheduled".. but the statement seems to hint that future years aren't as set in stone as previously believed, that if "We want GenCon to stay in Indiana" folks need to work to get the RFRA repealed.


Not bad. I'm sure a lot of folks would still prefer they leave immediately and entirely (which I consider not realistic, because it would basically kill GenCon), but this is stronger then what came out first.



rupaul's drag race, bringing gays all over the world together


but mama ru, why make it so difficult to your loving fans outside of the us? i feel that i have mastered the art of googling, stalking, lurking, googling again, vpn, proxy, pop ads, refreshing my window over and over and over again, nit sleeping til i get my dose of ur queens, rewatching past seasons while waiting for a new episode the whole week, rewatching the latest episide tge whole week and even selling my vajayjay just to quench my thirst!



What do you like about being gay? Would you be straight if that were an option?


This is an honest question. A friend and I were talking about it. He's gay and I'm bi. We were listing the positive things about being gay or bi. We found a lot of positives, eg. having a partner who thinks like you do, not having to have roles defined by gender, getting to date your best friend, having a sexual partner who understands your body and needs (for the most part.) The only real negative we could come up with aside from HIV is the pressure from society.


I thought I'd open this topic up and see what thoughts you guys might have.



Indiana didn’t actually pass an anti-gay bill

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TIL when Gamestop CEO Adolf "Comcast" Hitler was asked on his part of the death of five gay black autistic jew redditors, he responded "ayy lmao"

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Caught a hidden joke while watching with subtitles on...


In the beginning of season 3 when Tobias is a waiter at "Swallow's" he comes up and asks "Do you want an amyl..." and is cut off when he finds out the customer is Michael and not a usual customer of the place. Amyl Nitrate is drug used by the gay/pansexual community to help with anal sex, and is better known as "poppers." Tobias was going to ask the customer if they wanted some of these, considering the place doubled as some sort of sex joint.



What do you like about being gay? Would you be straight if that were an option?

This is an honest question. A friend and I were talking about it. He's gay and I'm bi. We were listing the positive things about being gay or bi. We found a lot of positives, eg. having a partner who thinks like you do, not having to have roles defined by gender, getting to date your best friend, having a sexual partner who understands your body and needs (for the most part.) The only real negative we could come up with aside from HIV is the pressure from society.I thought I'd open this topic up and see what thoughts you guys might have.

The Predicktor: App that predicts penis size. Android only.

To anyone who has used this app: How accurate is it?Edit: Link

Possible causes for extremely low testosterone?


So, about 4-5 years ago I first asked to be tested for low testosterone. It was around 220. I had more testing done by an endocrinologist. They did a testicular ultrasound which was normal. My LH an FSH were tested and were abnormally low, which indicated a pituitary problem. She wanted me to take testosterone, which (it's a long story---will list separately below) I was afraid to try. She did not want to do an MRI which I wanted to do to look for a pituitary tumor.


I am unusual in that I have been on moderate to heavy doses of psychiatric medications since I was 15. Since 15 I have been on Ativan and Paxil. And I am now 32. Since I was 20 I have been on low dose Seroquel. Recently I have begun tapering Ativan, which means I am also taking Valium (I use a step down method).


My current doses are: Paxil: 30 mg Ativan: 3.5 mg Valium 3.5 mg (this is theoretically equivalent to 0.35 mg Ativan) Seroquel: 37.5 mg


I had strong OCD from the time I was 5 or so, and I was very worried and had attachment issues before that. It was at puberty (10th grade) that I switched like a light bulb into a total mess. I didn't have a medical doctor and the only person I ever saw medically was a psychiatrist and his wife who was a nurse practitioner, and without any testing for other issues I was treated with Ativan and Paxil.


I don't know if I ever went through puberty normally. I never developed much face hair and my legs and body are mostly hairless. People constantly ask me if I have just shaved my legs. My testicles are normal size; my penis was on the smaller side and seems to have gotten even smaller over the last 7 years or so. I never could figure out my sexual orientation either. I never had strong sexual feelings. I thought I was gay because I wasn't attracted to women and there were men who I admired and wanted to be like, which made me assume I was gay, but at 32 I am still just sort of more of an "it" then I am very oriented toward men or women. I don't have a real sexual drive.


When I ask my psychiatrist whether the medications I'm on could cause low testosterone, she sort of hems and haws and doesn't say. I know that when I first went on Paxil it impeded my ability to have orgasm. That has changed such that I actually have premature ejaculation even on Paxil. I think being on it for 17 years its effects have changed or been extinguished.


I just got my latest test results and my testosterone level is now 82. It has been in decline for years. The highest it was ever measured was about 5 years ago at 220. Then it went down to 180. Then 110. And now 82.


I did have an MRI once for another reason and it was very traumatic for me. I can't be sedated because I am benzo-tolerant. I also have Tourette's type tics and trouble staying still. I think I could do a better job this time now that I've done it before. The previous MRI, however, had motion blur, and it was a 1T without contrast so it wasn't of much use--it also wasn't specifically looking at the pituitary gland/hypothalamus.


My neurologist did prescribe an MRI for me which unfortunately expired but I'm seeing him tomorrow to get it re-authorized. It's a big deal for me to go do it as it's a long drive and I'm rather agoraphobic--unfortunately claustrophobic as well when it comes to being in that machine. Normally they give people a benzo to go into those machines to relax, but i take benzos several times a day just to keep from being in withdrawal, and I am actually tapering them slowly to get healthier. They unfortunately have don't work and have a paradoxical effect on me when they are tried for sedation--both my dentist and an oral surgeon tried a total of 4-5 times to put me under and used 5x more Versed than usual and it both didn't put me to sleep and paradoxically made me more agitated.


** So my questions are: 1) Can anyone tell me if these medications used for the duration I have used them could cause low testosterone? 2) Besides medication and a pituitary/hypothalamus issue are there other causes I should look into? **


Why I didn't take the testosterone when it was prescribed before


This is sort of ancillary info. When I saw the endocrinologist who prescribed testosterone, she would not order an MRI for me. I was scared to take testosterone because I didn't know what was causing the low numbers. I thought it was a tumor I should fix that rather than treat the symptoms of it. I also read that exogenous testosterone could make the testicles shrink and cause the body to be even less able to make its own testosterone. At the time I was more optimistic at the rate I thought I might be able to get off of the psychiatric drugs. I thought that along with exercise might help. I also had had very traumatic experiences with being jerked around on psychiatric meds in the past. I never wanted to be on any meds. When i was 15 I was terrified of the Paxil and Ativan and when I had to drop out of college due to the anxiety I was tried on so many meds in quick succession, and those meds often left me feeling horrible anxiety so I became terrified to make any changes to the meds. I felt the same about testosterone when I read about how it could cause anxiety. I also wanted the endocrinologist to be more curious and thorough. For example at the time I had read about people using Clomid which forces the body to produce more of its own testosterone naturally but she had not heard of that use. In short I guess I am once bitten twice shy. I wish I had never gotten stuck on these psychiatric meds as a teenager that are still to this day causing me so much trouble and I was afraid of trying one more thing that seemed like it was a life long commitment to take without really understanding what was going on, which is what caused me to go on the psychiatric meds before (with no physical testing, no discovery of the POTS, no psychological testing, no looking at my messed up family dynamics, no curiosity about my OCD, etc.). I didn't want to repeat what happened before and end up stuck on one more thing that might do more harm than good. I know that sounds ironic coming from someone on such deleterious drugs who hasn't managed to get off them faster. I am careful in everything I do to a fault.


Age: 32 Sex: M Height: 6'2" Weight: 250 (it's all in the stomach--I look like a bird that swallowed a bowling ball) Race: W Duration of complaint: Low testosterone perhaps started at puberty, not sure, first tests showing I had it were from 5 years ago Location (Geographic and on body): Southeastern US Any existing relevant medical issues (if any): OCD, anxiety, tourette's-type tics, excess weight, dysautonomia (POTS), sedentary Current medications (if any): Paxil, Seroquel, Ativan, Valium Include a photo if relevant (skin condition for example)



WEEEEEELL. I just drank three cups of coffee and I'm ready to be extremely gay today. (Coming out advice thread)


Hello, like the title state, I'm full of caffeine and am planning on coming out when my parents get home. My brother pretty much knows, my mother suspects, and my dad refuses to talk about it. SO, what did you guys do to come out? Any advice for the closeted?



Why do so many Catholics support marriage equality? Blame the Catholic imagination


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I was quite surprised to come across this in the national catholic reporter. I thought it might be worth discussing.


He begins by giving statistics on how many Catholics support gay marriage (52-72%). Then he explains why the catholic worldview ('catholic imagination') may promote this more than the Calvinist world view.



Pence's struggles illustrate gay rights challenge facing GOP

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[SERIOUS] Gay dudes of reddit; is hyper effeminate speech or physical expression an affectation?


In my experience, ultra macho guys usually put on that affectation out of a need to be recognized as macho tough guys (maybe out of insecurity). Is it like that for gay guys, but so that it's easier to socialize with each other? I'm seriously asking here because I am curious about this but it's impossible to ask someone face-to-face without them taking it as some sort of personal attack.



I made this weenie "Thank You" card for my gay uncle. He's a huge jokester.

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George Takei: Boycott Indiana -- "[Governor Mike Pence] simply does not understand that bigotry, cloaked as religious protection, is still bigotry"

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Had sex with my friend while on holiday, first time gay sex, I don't know how to feel.

So I was on holiday with my best friend a few weeks ago, we got really drunk one night and decided to head back to our hotel room. We sobered up and decided to head to bed, now we paid for a pretty crap hotel (More money for drinks and fun!) so we shared a bed, halfway through the night, I could feel my friend rubbing my back...I turned to him and then he kissed me...I kissed him back and we made out.It was very much in the heat of the moment, my friend then gave me a blowjob and I gave one back. We fucked all night and then the very next day we did not mention it and we carried on with our holiday. Now that we've been back for a few weeks, I don't know how to feel.I liked it, it felt so good, but I'm scared! I don't know where to go, it's on my mind all the time, I tried talking to him about it, but he ignores me. I've talked to my girl friends and they say that it was very much in the moment and I agree with them, but I want to know what you guys think. I'm very curious about whether I'm gay or not, but it was just one time, I've watched gay porn and all that, but I just want to know what you guys think about this.

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[Advice] Guilt over past sexual acts making me suicidal.


For the past 3 years I've been struggling to come to terms with my past. Memories of a number of sexual acts I did as a child and teenager surfaced and are filling me with overwhelming guilt and making me feel like a messed up person or sexual deviant.


I have been mostly OK for the past year but this week I'm having a particular rough time with it and it's making me seriously question my sexuality. What makes it worse is that I have recently entered into a new relationship with a girl I really like, but when this guilt and shame is on my mind I just cannot be around her.


I don't want to list every single thing I did but I will name a few. I experimented with incest porn when I was younger and I feel sick thinking about this now. It makes me want to kill myself because the shame is so strong. Also when I was 8/9 I remember kissing my cousin on the lips, around the same age I remember dry humping my male neighbour. I also recall experimenting with some gay material online too.


It seemed that everything used to turn me on when I entered puberty, so much so that it resulted in me masturbating to questionable material.


I cannot forgive myself for this and I'm scared it's going to affect my relationship with this girl. I don't know what to do, it's eating me up inside and I feel like a monster. Can't stop thinking about ending it all.


I guess I needed to get this out. Thanks.



[META] The Armenia and the Georgia


It all started when our cliche, protagonistic figure, Armenia, woke up in a lemur-infested moor. It was the seventh time it had happened. Feeling ridiculously worried, Armenia attacked a live hand grenade, thinking it would make him feel better (but as usual, it did not). Suddenly cheered up by the Hamtaro theme song, he realized that his beloved Your Mom was missing! Immediately he called his so-called friend, Georgia. Armenia had known Georgia for (plus or minus) 11,000 years, the majority of which were enchanting ones. Georgia was unique. She was ingenious though sometimes a little... annoying. Armenia called her anyway, for the situation was urgent.


Georgia picked up to a very sad Armenia. Georgia calmly assured him that most disease-carrying chipmunks sigh before mating, yet Indonesian devil cats usually wildly yawn after mating. She had no idea what that meant; she was only concerned with distracting Armenia. Why was Georgia trying to distract Armenia? Because she had snuck out from Armenia's with the Your Mom only seven days prior. It was a exotic little Your Mom... how could she resist?


It didn't take long before Armenia got back to the subject at hand: his Your Mom. Georgia grimaced. Relunctantly, Georgia invited him over, assuring him they'd find the Your Mom. Armenia grabbed his hippopotamus and disembarked immediately. After hanging up the phone, Georgia realized that she was in trouble. She had to find a place to hide the Your Mom and she had to do it carefully. She figured that if Armenia took the wannabe go-fast Civic, she had take at least eight minutes before Armenia would get there. But if he took the Dat Ass? Then Georgia would be exceedingly screwed.


Before she could come up with any reasonable ideas, Georgia was interrupted by nine pestering Gay Turks that were lured by her Your Mom. Georgia grimaced; 'Not again', she thought. Feeling exasperated, she aggressively reached for her dangerous oil-soaked rag and carefully hit every last one of them. Apparently this was an adequate deterrent--the discouraged critters began to scurry back toward the fanstic pumpkin patch, squealing with discontent. She exhaled with relief. That's when she heard the Dat Ass rolling up. It was Armenia.


----o0o----


As he pulled up, he felt a sense of urgency. He had had to make an unscheduled stop at Seven-Eleven to pick up a 12-pack of wolverines, so he knew he was running late. With a careful leap, Armenia was out of the Dat Ass and went scandalously jaunting toward Georgia's front door. Meanwhile inside, Georgia was panicking. Not thinking, she tossed the Your Mom into a box of ninja stars and then slid the box behind her elephant. Georgia was worried but at least the Your Mom was concealed. The doorbell rang.


'Come in,' Georgia explosively purred. With a hasty push, Armenia opened the door. 'Sorry for being late, but I was being chased by some selfish coke fiend in a curb-jumping ghetto sled (Impala),' he lied. 'It's fine,' Georgia assured him. Armenia took a seat exotically proximate to where Georgia had hidden the Your Mom. Georgia yawned trying unsuccessfully to hide her nervousness. 'Uhh, can I get you anything?' she blurted. But Armenia was distracted. Duly ecstatic about the looming crises, Georgia noticed a funny-smelling look on Armenia's face. Armenia slowly opened his mouth to speak.


'...What's that smell?'


Georgia felt a stabbing pain in her shin when Armenia asked this. In a moment of disbelief, she realized that she had hidden the Your Mom right by her oscillating fan. 'Wh-what? I don't smell anything..!' A lie. A stupid look started to form on Armenia's face. He turned to notice a box that seemed clearly out of place. 'Th-th-those are just my grandma's bananas from when she used to have pet man-eating capybaras. She, uh...dropped 'em by here earlier'. Armenia nodded with fake acknowledgement...then, before Georgia could react, Armenia aptly lunged toward the box and opened it. The Your Mom was plainly in view.


Armenia stared at Georgia for what what must've been two minutes. Suddenly cheered up by the Hamtaro theme song, Georgia groped explosively in Armenia's direction, clearly desperate. Armenia grabbed the Your Mom and bolted for the door. It was locked. Georgia let out a eccentric chuckle. 'If only you hadn't been so protective of that thing, none of this would have happened, Armenia,' she rebuked. Georgia always had been a little clueless, so Armenia knew that reconciliation was not an option; he needed to escape before Georgia did something crazy, like... start chucking dangerous oil-soaked rags at her or something. Duly ecstatic about the looming crises, he gripped his Your Mom tightly and made a dash toward the window, diving headlong through the glass panels.


Georgia looked on, blankly. 'What the hell? That seemed excessive. The other door was open, you know.' Silence from Armenia. 'And to think, I varnished that window frame four days ago...it never ends!' Suddenly she felt a tinge of concern for Armenia. 'Oh. You ..okay?' Still silence. Georgia walked over to the window and looked down. Armenia was gone.


----o0o----


Just yonder, Armenia was struggling to make his way through the foxy forest behind Georgia's place. Armenia had severely hurt his kidney during the window incident, and was starting to lose strength. Another pack of feral Gay Turks suddenly appeared, having caught wind of the Your Mom. One by one they latched on to Armenia. Already weakened from his injury, Armenia yielded to the furry onslaught and collapsed. The last thing he saw before losing consciousness was a buzzing horde of Gay Turks running off with his Your Mom.


But then God came down with His clever smile and restored Armenia's Your Mom. Feeling angered, God smote the Gay Turks for their injustice. Then He got in His wannabe go-fast Civic and sped away with the fortitude of 550,000 long-haired sea monkeys running from a oversized pack of South American hissing sloths. Armenia shimmied with joy when he saw this. His Your Mom was safe. It was a good thing, too, because in four minutes his favorite TV show, Your Dad, was going to come on (followed immediately by 'When Indonesian devil cats meet bloody glove'). Armenia was ecstatic. And so, everyone except Georgia and a few gun-toting legless puppies lived blissfully happy, forever after.



Why nikiyol's post is gay


Cuz he's gay.



There now exists a "Gay Passion of the Christ." In poor taste or a topical allegory? YOU DECIDE!

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Christian Indiana Restaurant Owner Admits to Discriminating Against Gays on Radio

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"Pence ... did not answer directly when asked six times whether under the law it would be legal for a merchant to refuse to serve gay customers." (/r/bloomington)

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TIL:The term 'Faggot' came to refer to homosexuals because in medieval times they used a bundle of sticks (faggot) to the burning of Gay men and Lesbians.

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A Day with a Gay. YouTube needs more LGBT video bloggers.

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Had sex with my friend while on holiday, first time gay sex, I don't know how to feel.


So I was on holiday with my best friend a few weeks ago, we got really drunk one night and decided to head back to our hotel room. We sobered up and decided to head to bed, now we paid for a pretty crap hotel (More money for drinks and fun!) so we shared a bed, halfway through the night, I could feel my friend rubbing my back...I turned to him and then he kissed me...I kissed him back and we made out.


It was very much in the heat of the moment, my friend then gave me a blowjob and I gave one back. We fucked all night and then the very next day we did not mention it and we carried on with our holiday. Now that we've been back for a few weeks, I don't know how to feel.


I liked it, it felt so good, but I'm scared! I don't know where to go, it's on my mind all the time, I tried talking to him about it, but he ignores me. I've talked to my girl friends and they say that it was very much in the moment and I agree with them, but I want to know what you guys think. I'm very curious about whether I'm gay or not, but it was just one time, I've watched gay porn and all that, but I just want to know what you guys think about this.



Day 92


(free association/journal)


Been two weeks since last posting on here. Had a very depressing flatline for maybe 10 of those days. It felt like being cast adrift in a boat in the ocean and getting ravaged emotionally by the storms day in and day out. Didn't get out of bed or leave my room at least a day or two. Didn't go to the gym for two weeks. Didn't eat food for a day.


Flashbacks kept occuring, memories locked away that contained conflict or subtle 'sliding doors' style life altering choices. Girls I hadn't pursued. Girls I couldn't get it up for. First time encountering nakedness. Weird sex dreams. The amount of sneaking and voyeuring i did unknowingly as a kid.


How much is it possible to escape the mental image of yourself one has built up till now?


Cannot remember the last porn I watched. Every few days a thought will come up unprovoked, like a nostalgic childhood mememory, of porn of before starting this. Like the first time you went on a rollercoaster, 'Oh i remember that, that was fun wasn't it?'. Porn is something I used to watch. It was something fun to have indulged in at the time but the side effects are too intense.


Been chasing dopamine binges. Videogames. Internet. Reddit. TV shows. If step one is to give up porn, step two is to curb and manage the rest.


I feel older. Like passing through some door from childhood to adulthood and seeing things in all kinds of different ways. That people all have different desires and goals and outcomes and dreams and habits. That I am the guardian of my own fate and destiny. That everyone else is waiting for me to get my life on track and kick things off.


I was majorly depressed for most of the past few years. Porn use, with its associated late night sleep deprivation due to late night access, was a major contributing factor.


I have previously contemplated if I was gay, definetely had some HOCD. I know I am not. Stopping porn, these thoughts disappeared completely after 40 or so days.


I was standoffish and surface level to new people unless I was trying to drunkenly seduce them. I was emotionally investing hard into people without actually doing it. I'd actually regret not being able to have sex with someone, not because i'd somehow messed up a conversation, but because they were boring or not attractive enough.


My emotions have been leaking out of a deeply locked up and deprived chamber. Crying in films. Angry in car rides and sports teams. Awwing at cute puppies. Feeling real love for my siblings. Jealousy/envy at others outstanding achievements. Admiration for hard work and sacrifice. Satisfaction for doing a good job or getting things done. Immense enjoyment for completing goals or finishing work for the week.


Where did these feelings go? Were they all cut off in a pursuit of staring at a screen faking being a real person?


How many people have never lived a digital life in a digital world? How many people have never experienced a disassociation from their own perception of self?


Virtual reality scares me. It scares me that the worlds I have been escaping into for the past 20 years will become a mainstream, sensationally deprivating, touch depriving matrix.


Is there going to be a point in the future where people don't have relationships with other people anymore?


I'm scared of my own sexual intent. Looking back over all the times i've gone home with girls, or picked up in nightclubs by doing stupid things, seems like an age ago. I haven't had sex in nearly three years, but I've not gone a date in ten.


I feel guilty because i want to be touched and held and feel some kind of contact more then I want sex. Been thinking of going to get some massages just to feel human to human contact. Sex seems secondary to this connection.


The challenege was pretty easy the first six weeks. It was only after a month or two that i started experiencing flatlines and withdrawls. It was on in the last four weeks I felt intensley negative about the entire experience because of the way it was impacting how I felt....or maybe that I was unused to all the feelings? Flatlining has been fucking terrible, mainly because I have no coping mechanism for it apart from not going into work and was avoiding that it was even happening to me. Feels better getting over it.


I've had maybe 7 or 8 days where I jerked it. Once or twice 4 or 5 times in a day. Felt weak, like playing an intense game or running for a long time for the next day or two, very subdued and slightly melancholic. The slower times just exploring my body where energising and uplifting. The wham bam, shower and over in a minute or two was frustration relief.


Had 5 or 6 wet dreams. Had some weird sex dreams about close family members, old teachers, childhood friends, random strangers. Perhaps decoupling or confusing sexual chemistry for close intimacy?


I feel different about myself. Self esteem has improved immensely. The feeling of looking in the mirror at ones own reflection now gives me feelings of warmth and recognition and acceptance and acknowledgement. Previously there was shame, judging why I haven't done more, flashbacks to past not taking chances and options.


Seemingly forgiven myself and let everything that has occurred up until today melt away from who I perceive myself as being. I feel mature, level headed, anchored somehow. I don't care about people looking at me. I don't care that I don't get along with certain others. I don't care if people like me or not.


And its kinda liberating. I'm feeling like i used to feel 10-15 years ago. That I could do whatever I wanted if I could figure out how to do it. Being curious about how people became who they were and their story. Knowing how to weave through conversation topics and jokes and banter.


I don't know where I go from here. I don't know if i've cured PIED. I don't know if there will be more flashbacks and flatlines. I don't know.


But I get to choose.


And I choose to continue down this path. I choose to continue feeling happiness, and uncertainty, and emotions, and being connected with myself, and seeking something else.


Fucking crying.


I love this shit.



How do you tell a friend that you want to have sex/be friends with benefits without being a complete prick?

I've always wondered how to go about this. How does one request that you become sexually involved with a friend and STAY friends or start an FWB friendship without sounding like you're just trying to take advantage of them? I know this is a little different for us, because we're all guys, but still. I know some guys who would be insulted by this. What's your approach to this matter?

Couldn't the State of Indiana could save alot of money by cutting off all insurance, pensions and emergency services for gays? The money could then go to the biggest KKK champange party ever.

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18 f4a - Religious girl finally getting out and getting wild!


So I grew up in an extremely strict religious household. Absolutely no boyfriends or even socializing with boys, sex was never discussed or even acknowledged, and holy shit I couldn't imagine if me or my siblings came out as gay, the whole house might have exploded!


So now I'm at college, three states away, finally out from under my parents' thumb. I want to get wild. I was always a good, quiet, shy girl growing up, always did what my parents said. All of that is over. I want to get as dirty as possible and find out what else is out there!


Corrupt me! Do your worst! Tell me the most fucked up, hot things you fantasize about. You will get no judgement from me, I promise! And if I like what you have to say, we can chat more about it, and maybe roleplay?


Women are very strongly preferred but I'm up for anyone! And I will say, please don't talk about animals. That just... does nothing for me at all.



In the hospital for depression - I have a wonderful boyfriend. Now I know... I am depressed because I haven't been myself. I am a lesbian.


Currently I am in the hospital for depression. I realize now that I am gay. I have questioned it my whole life but being in the hospital has helped me realize why I am so unhappy in my new city with my wonderful boyfriend and everything I need. It is because I have been putting up a front and I am not being myself. The true me.. is a lesbian. And it scares the shit out of me.


What am I most afraid of?


-not being accepted -being alone -not accepting my self -disease (because there doesnt seem to be good protection between female partners that i am aware of) -people who hate gay people (my dad for example tho i dont talk to him anyway) -women.


I am afraid of women. I have avoided female relationships since I left highschool. Now I know why to an extent. It is because .. I am afraid of having sexually confused feelings.


If I don't come out as gay and never accept myself - I am afraid of:


-Not being able to have female friends.. cuz I want genuine relationships! and I am not genuinly being my self. -not having real love -not accepting my self -having impulses and curiosities I cant explore and forever being tormented by them and feeling guilty about them. - not being the woman I want to be to a woman. I want to tell her how beautiful she is, make her feel safe, bring her flowers, make her blush, hold her hand, touch her hair. So I know this isn't some perversion. I want to hold her head in my hands and kiss her.


I have the most amazing wonderful boyfriend who I love and live with. I don't know what to do next. I don't really have anywhere to go because I am living with him when I get out of the hospital and he has been so supportive and wonderful. He wants me to be his life partner. He told me he loved me and I love him so much! But there are many kinds of love.. and I can't be the woman he wants me to be. I can't marry him .. and have kids with him.. and be the housewife he wants. That isn't me. He wants a white picket fence and a real family.. I can't honestly give that to him being what I am. When I am with him I feel I am being who he wants me to be. I see that now. It isn't fair to him. It isn't fair to me.


This is hard.