Opinions?

A couple years ago a gay friend of mine gave me a really shitty 2 minute blowjob, and ever since i've kinda had feelings for him, making me think i might be gay. I also get thoughts and urges of what it'd be like to do this, that and other things, but I dont find myself looking at pictures of dicks, gay sex or anything of the sort.. I don't know if its just me being difficult with my thoughts or what. Opinions welcome. Thanks