I finally got over my fear of sex

This has taken me so long, for along time I have been affraid of sex, toys fine BJs fine but sex has always scared me, my first BF was very mean and when It cake to sex he ruined my confidence and that has effected me alot the past 5 years and hurt my least relationship as I was hardly ever wanting sex, anyway over the past 6 months I have been building my sex drive back up, I have always used toys but never been brave enough to have full on anal even when I went to a kink event a few months ago and backed out of a guy topping me due to fear of embarrassing myself.Anyway over the past few weeks I have gotten more confident and ready, I had been chatting to a guy on grinder and today I finally had him over and after over a year of playing solo I finally got laid, I was fucked for close to 15 minuted and got my ass filled upbandbinfeels amazing, I have finally over come the fear and doubt I had, it's like a new me the real me has come out fighting, my sex drive is now back to how it was pre mean ex meaning I can now happily have sex again, it's a massive boost for me and has me me feel alot better about myself I can't tell you how happy I am.