This is tearing me apart.

I feel like I just want everyone I know standing under a mountain, then me on top of that mountain just screaming out my true nature. I so want to come out but I don't have the balls. The main problem is my dad. He's never shown to appreciate when you aren't the way he wanted you to be. I also like this guy at my school, but the more I think about him, the more I hurt myself 'cos I know that what I wish was real never will be. Huuuuugh, 'till I'm free from my own chains, I think I'll just fuel my depression with classic rock. The come out day just has to arrive, and that's frightening.