I came out to my best friend

I’m 19 my friend is 20 and straight we’ve been friends since 4th grade he pretty much lived at my house during the summers. We did everything together fishing, camping, and hiking were really fun.I haven’t told anybody I’m gay and lately I’ve been feeling like it’s been tearing my chest apart. I started having feelings for him awhile back, and I mean I was obsessed with him, and we’ve been talking a lot on the phone recently and I’ve finally worked up the courage to tell him,I wrote him on Facebook msgr confessing how much he means to me and how he makes me feel, when I’m around him my hands get sweaty and my heart starts racing and I can’t ever think straight, I couldn’t keep my mind off of him. So I sent him that text around 12am. As soon as I did it I couldn’t believe myself I put my hands over my eyes and hoped for the best.My heart was racing my mind was racing, I didn’t want to lose my best friend but I couldn’t hold back my feelings for him anymore. I felt my phone vibrate I was scared and excited to look so I snatched it up and unlocked it he wrote back:He initially said, “What the fuck” he asked if I was gay, I said yes, he said ok. I tried texting him no response, I don’t want to lose him he means so much to me. I know I dropped a HUGE bombshell on him last night, so I’m gonna let him think it over for a couple days or weeks let him get used to it.It sucks he acted this way, but after the fact I feel so much better getting that off my chest, but I wish he’d get on mine iykwimTLDR: I came out to my life long best friend he reacted differently than how I hoped he’d react. Probably blocked me. Too bad