Come Out and Still In. What you guys Think?

I knew I was gay since almost ever but never wanted to come out as I also wanted to be treated the same everyone else (family and comunnity). But decided to come out two weeks before starting university so it would be a new world by then (PS: I am from Argentina, so we don't have something like a campus and it's common we live with our family a long long time, still wanted to come out.) So... In dinner (we were eating empanadas, my favorite) I just stand Up and said: "I have something to Say. I am gay" And my Mom who was Next to me said "Do you like men?" And I said "Yes" and blah blah blah Buuuut Even though they were very welcoming and all (some crying for Mom, dad and one sister, the other sister just watched me and me and my brother kept eating empanadas) after a few days like they all stopped believing I was gay and convienced me (I take responsability here as I accepted as well) to not Say a Word "just in case". What's "just in case"? In case I was not gay (according my beloved father), and because I've always been the house baby kinda. And they did not want the world to hurt me. So... come out and still in the closet And my family and I are all great but after 2 months I started university whatever happened was not told ever again. What's Even Worse Is That I keep lying people I care about (good friends, one who Is gay by the way, which I hate because I want to share things with him (not in love of him) and can't because I just don't dare coming out and thinking That I lied to him and others just... I can't) and it breaks me. A Lot. But well... And I can't do things or experiment things cause I don't dare to say a Word just because I have already lied so much. So.... Yeap... TL.WR: Come out of the closet two years ago and still in the closet somehow. Thinking about coming out again or just ignore it and act as truly me and do what little I dare to do without given Word to others (?)PS: I've always been the kind of romantic and thought to myself "I'll come out then, when I have someone Next to me" but it has not happened yet cause, well, don't tell a Word to anyone