Need a little help, guys

It hasn’t been tough growing up, feeling different. I had always found it tough getting sex or anything substantial since I “came out” to the scene in 2014. Conversations eventually die, and people who promises things never fulfilled them.My self esteem was bruised so badly, it’s hardly even there now. I have tried to go onto apps but I have eventually left them because nothing really happened.All my sexual desires were fulfilled by myself, even since I was 13. For the past 10+ years, I have nothing by porn to get me through those lonely days.What should I do? I’m not young anymore, considering I am hitting 30 Soon.