Insecure?

So, as a gay male. Having a big dingle is very important. Unfortunately, I don’t have one. I’m always super conscious about it like my occasional hookups I keep all my clothes on (one because I don’t like my body and two cause my dingle) and I know that I should just accept it because there’s nothing I can do about it. But some days I just want to cut it off you know. Is it really as big of a problem as I think?