I love to wear girls skinny jeans but...

Hey guys. Im 19 yr old boy and i live in jordan. and i love to wear girls tight jeans (if someone doesn’t like them just tell me and ill show that they are amazing and comfy) but here in our society they laugh and curse me if i wear them in public places Last week I was walking when i was wearing white ripped super skinny jeans and 3 men took me to an apartment and raped me. I always cry when I remember what happend