Bottoming. I got downvoted to -5,000 in gaybros for this (xpost)

So I know I'll get a lot of flack for this. But I don't like bottoming. It's just so painful and awful. There isn't any part of it that i'd ever liked. I'm old enough now where plenty of guys have tried. So now comes the part where people tell me im doing it wrong, that I just need to relax and take it and enjoy it. Again im 33. I've had huge 9 inch dicks and tiny 4 inch ones. they all hurt. It's never pleasurable. I've been with a great guy for two years and he really wants to give it to me. I wish I could but I think im done with trying. IDK what to do.