That freeing feeling of happiness

I wasn't a very tough kid, i got picked on until I learned how to "behave"Then as I became a teen I became desperate to prove I was straight and manly and lifted weights like no tommorow, forced myself to go to prom with a girl. But it wasn't me. No matter how angry or hard I tried to deny it.I was homophobic and angry and closed off. So ashamed of what I wanted. I wanted to date guys.I didn't enjoy that stage.But eventually I moved past it and my feelings grew and grew. And my fitness became a health pursuit rather than some toxic masculinity armour around myselfAnd then I met HIM. And everything moved forward so fast.I had my first kiss, even better than I'd hoped, and for the first time I got to experience what it was like to be with a man. And I loved every second of it. The protection I felt when he held me, the loving affection, the feeling of liberation knowing I could be myself with him, and spend my days with best friend in the whole world.And I knew from the moment we first kissed. This wasn't a mistake, there was no more doubts. I was gay.I am in love, with a man and I couldent be more overjoyed.I'm finally freed from that prison, no longer do I have to hide myself or bottle my feelings. I even cry now because my emotions are free are things make me cry tears of happiness or I'm no longer afraid to sniffle and bawl at a sad film when I'm with him.I'm just glad I was lucky enough to have supportive friends and parents who accepted me when the truth came out.I'm finally free and my heart feels ready to burst from all the warmth in my heart these days :)