I'm in love with my best friend. Do you think she feels the same way?

This is a bit to read, but I seriously need some guidance.I'm in love with my best friend. We are both females, both 19 years old. We've been best friends since we were about 14. I've liked her for almost this entire time. As far as I know, she's straight. And as far as she and everyone else knows, I'm also straight. I haven't come out, she's the only girl I've ever had these feelings for. I'm usually attracted to men.Firstly I'll tell a bit about myself and her. I'm more masculine, but in no way do I identify as a male or a butch. I usually just wear a men's tshirt or hoodie, and sweat pants. This is just because I'm comfortable in this. I'm kind of shy, so I don't get touchy around any other friends apart from her. She is VERY beautiful, she's also had a kind of rough upbringing. She was kicked out of home at 16, where she moved in with my family and I which we live over 2000 kilometres away (I used to live down her way, we went to school together until I moved when I was around 16, she moved here a year later). She recently moved back after living with me for two years after sorting things with her family. This was one year ago. She's very feminine, but she can also be a little sloppy and I like that!I'm just going to list some things below that she does or has done in the past.• She's very touchy, but she tries to do it discreetly, much like I do to her. For example she will grab me around the neck (jokingly haha) with her arms and kind of wrestle with me. She always wrestles me and tickles my stomach. She always sleeps on my shoulder during long car rides and stuff, I don't think she does that with other friends. One time in particular recently, she rested her head on my lap when we were sitting on the couch watching a movie and asked me to play with her hair.• She keeps my clothes. As I said, I usually dress in male clothes so I have a fair amount of comfy shirts and hoodies. She always used to ask to keep some. I'd let her. One time she uploaded a photo to Instagram wearing my shirt she got a while before and the caption to the photo read "Haha aw, I still have it :)". But she didn't tell me about the photo or anything, so I don't know if she wanted me to realise she was meaning the shirt. I got to excited so I just started to look for other things in the photo that she could've been referring to, but honestly it was just a photo of her and I couldn't notice anything else.• One time we were laying on a fold out bed together, we were just talking to my younger brother. We weren't sleeping in the bed, just laying on it. I was just laying behind her, we weren't touching. Then we both just got up about 5 minutes later and left to each others bedroom. Then within 20 minutes, someone had messaged me (without her knowing) some screenshots of some texts between this person (we'll call him Jake) and herself. She was telling Jake how we were just laying on the bed and that I was putting my hand on her hip and so she asked what do I want, and I apparently signified to go to the bedroom. I was so confused because none of that happened... why would she say it? I don't get it. She doesn't know till this day that Jake sent that to me, I was a little embarrassed so I just kept quiet. It also happened another time, about a year after this she told this Jake guy that she mentioned something about lesbians and I went all funny.. this definitely didn't happen, I would've remembered it.• Once we were sitting by the computer at my place just doing stupid stuff, and she decided to prop her phone up and just video ourselves talking and saying funny things. Towards the end of the video she grabbed my face and gave me the biggest kiss on the cheek, almost like it was a big urge. I loved it but I just acted like it was normal and tried not to get flustered.• She lived an hour away from me at one point, we were about 15. She used to come and stay at my place every second or third weekend, she would catch the bus for an hour to get to me. I'd always want her to stay longer so I'd convince her to stay for another night. She sometimes have work the next day (part time job). But then she would ring up and say she can't make it. This happened every time she stayed.• About a year ago, she had just come back home from visiting her family flying distance away. I decided to sleep with her in her room that night because I was happy she was back and wanted to hang out. Her and my other friend who was staying over (who she's also kinda friends with) were having conversations, I was trying to sleep. As weird as it sounds I just fake slept because I was trying to sleep anyway, hahaha. Then I decided I'm gonna cuddle up to her and see what she does. I wrapped my arms around her arm, put my head on her arm or shoulder, put my head all the way up near her neck. It sounds weird, I know, but I just wanted to see her reaction. She was just having conversations like normal with my friend while I was doing this, she was just acting like it was normal. Then I seen flash through my eyelids haha, assuming she'd taken a photo of me. Just assumed she was being funny. They talked for a hour or two and then went to bed. I woke up the next morning and the my other friend was looking at her snapchats and she opened the photo of me, and it was captioned 'cute'. I didn't get the snapchat, so she mustn't have wanted me to see it.• Once I decided to go hang out with her in her room. At this time she only had a single bed because she had just moved in, so it was a bit squishy. We were just being funny and taking stupid photos of each other, but I had just laid on the edge of her bed. Somehow I found myself laying between her legs, but I didn't even realise at first. We weren't doing anything, it just happened to be the position we were sitting. She didn't ask me to move or anything.• She sometimes mentions that she dislikes lesbians. But, I do that too. I know it seems like such a terrible thing to say, but I only do it to hide the fact that I have feelings for her. I wonder if she says it for the same reason.• I don't know if this is a lesbian thing, but she did watch all seasons of Orange is the New Black... just a thought ;). She also done a school assessment about gay marriage rights.So, let me know what you think. Do you think she feels the same way or a similar way? Let me know why or why not.