Gay but hate lgbt movement

Ok so basically im a fairly contrarian gay dude, im a bottom but i love sports and all the manly stuff, but more importantly im pretty right wing and i also am fairly conservative in my views on flaunting secuality and such, you see im feeling that the lgbt communityand its in your face sort of attitude is making it harder for me to accept myself because i just hate what most other gay men would hold near and dear, i also feel like the lgbt movement is making it near impossible for me to come out. I don't want to be associated with them but if i go against it im automatically outcast and left to rot alone, what the hell do i do?