After 4 decades I finally know who I am.

Recently - like less than 3 weeks ago, I figured out that I am gay. "Figured out" is not quite as accurate as "finally admitted something I've known since I was 12."The emotions around this experience have been overwhelming. I feel a little lost, a little scared, and extremely unprepared (as if there's some kind of prep for this shit...) It's a profound change in my identity, so much so that I'm having a hard time imagining what my life looks like from here. But at the same time I'm mourning a marriage to a wonderful woman that I love deeply. Despite the pain this has caused her, she's being supportive and loving.I wish I had gotten to this place sooner in my life. It's like I make sense for the first time - and more importantly I love myself, truly. I'm not planning on wasting any more time not living my truth. I'm too old for that bullshit. I've started coming out to my close friends, who have also been amazing. I'm glad to see that I chose the people in my life wisely. I've been reaching out to LGBT friends, many of whom I've been out of touch with for a long time, trying to establish a new support system as I join the community.I don't have a big point, or a question I'm dying to ask (though that's probably because I don't even know what I don't know yet.) I just needed to share this. Thanks for reading.