Just.....need to talk

Im 16 male, and madly in love with a guy. It all started in may of 2017. I was a sophomore in high school and this guy in my grade is everything to me. I always ask for hugs and he gives them to me. We have deep conversations and i always long for his touch. I do this thing where i take something from him in class and purposely put the object in front of me. In attempt to get it back, he wraps his arms around me from behind to get it back. I take immense pleasure in these moments.The only thing....he as far as i know, is straight. Im not 100 percent sure but i do have my doubts. If any of you would like to know why i have doubts of his sexuality, please ask below. The thing is, im overweight and taking the summer to lose weight. I already lost almost 10 pounds and feel great. All i need is this one high school fantasy to come true. I mean come on....im not gonna marry the guy. I just want us to be a thing....just for a while. I know high school ends and you meet new people, but i just wanna enjoy it while it lasts.There's this one other thing, im friends with this one guy who wont admit it but everyone knows he likes guys. Lets call him x. And i have a huge hunch that he is also massively infatuated with my crush. Back in school ( summer break now ), x and i would constantly indirectly compete over him. Its like we both knew that we love this person, and only one of us can get him. X is so rude to me, sometimes nice and funny. But when it comes to my crush, we become blood thirsty. I actually talked to my crush about this guy, and he said that im a much better friend than x. I felt really good about this. But everytime i see x talking to my crush, i get very, very envious.Towards the end of the school year, this led to me trying to show off to x by getting my crush to hug me. I know its evil, but so is x. I feel that x tries to sabotage my chance with my crush. And i think its because he hates himself for not being comfortsble with his true self as much as i am. Anyways, im done ranting. I was just wondering if anyone can just comment below and relate. I wanna get a chill convo going. I need someone to talk to. And ill listen to any of your problems if needed.