I'm gay?

Throw away because I'm paranoid. Im pretty sure I'm gay every couple of weeks I get really strong gay urges for porn and guys I see around. After a good wank I usually hate myself I think I'm disgusting and end up going straight for a month and then the cycle just repeats. I've had gay urges sense middleschool but I can't help but hating myself. My parents and friends are all accepting of gays and I am too, I just can't help but hating myself for feeling this way. Does anyone else have theses problems?