It really hurts that I've never had a relationship or even a friendship, and the pain is only exacerbated by reading about teenagers who are in relationships.

I don't know what's so wrong with me that I haven't ever experienced something at 20 that lots of people experience when they're 16. In terms of social experience, I'm still that 14 year old who-- wait, most people have friends by the time they're 14.At this point, maybe it's time to give up. I still have zero social skills; the only difference between me now and me 6 years ago is that now I can order food without freaking out too much.