“What to do with my gay life”

Ok. Here I am again on Reddit venting about my life. (sigh) I’ll try to keep it as short as possible ‘cause I know it’s a rule. I found myself a few minutes ago asking Google “what to do with my gay life” and didn't find an answer. I’m not new to this at all but right now I literally do not know what to do with myself. I’m dealing with some kind of stress or depression, not sure how I should call it. Some of the reasons are: I’m currently unemployed, lost my job on November, it was not perfect but I was doing what I love with people that made me feel like I belonged there. I was there for 1.5 year and suddenly the supervisors, some really good colleagues and I all got laid off in my department. I tried working somewhere else but it was definitely not what I expected nor felt the same way as my previous job in terms of environment, team work, etc. So I decided to quit and apply in other places, therefore I’m currently on a job hunt. I’m assisting to college and the next quarter is about to start, but since I’m currently unemployed I won´t be able to go. My mom (my only support right now) asked me a few days about it and got “kinda” angry because I didn’t tell her before. I’m 26 y/o, trying to be as independent as I can be, with plans of moving, rent a room and start the adult life. And I strictly refuse to the idea of having to ask for money to parents or sugar daddies at this age (the last being not even possible, since I don’t think I have that hot body or fuckboy face and haircut it requires). And yeah, here comes the part where I meet this guy on Grindr, he tells me he’s “down for a relationship, though wants a quickie”, then I agree and go to his place, spend a good time, talk for a few days and then just like that I lose the interest and just vanish, change my number and avoid any type of contact. I know it was wrong and I know it sounds like I’m a total bitch, but with all the things that I am (and was, since I met him on finals week and I was dealing with a lot of stress by then) going through I just didn’t want to be in a relationship. Besides of that, there was also other reasons like him lying about his age (he was 20 and in his words “kind of new into these things”), the sex wasn’t that good, and I just wasn’t that into him even though we met again just once before "my Houdini act". All these things got me really down, I tried things to distract me and cheer myself up like going to the beach with my best friend, went to a bar with a college friend and some of her friends, they’re telling me to go out this weekend but I’m not really into that right now. My best friend has a complicated attitude sometimes, so I can’t really count on her whenever I need her. And just to give you an idea of how bad I’m feeling, last week I was at the barbershop, looked myself into the mirror and told him to cut ALL MY HAIR, which I haven’t done in more than 3 years. I look like a fucking Alien and now refuse to any activities outside of my house or even my room (I’ve been staying up 'til 3am for days watching movies and trying to find free online videogames, so I’m open to suggestions). I mean, I know it might not be first world problems but I’m feeling terrible. Please let me know your thoughts and give me some advice, I’d really use them right now.