So I experimented and I think I confirmed I'm not gay by preference but that in the spectrum of wholly gay and wholly straight I know now that I'm toward the straight side but not completely. What are your experiences in that regard?

So I am seperated from my wife. I want to fix our marriage but she wants us to be seperated until I "fix myself."So last weekend I had a big night with a good mate of mine (who is straight) and his friend who is gay although has sex with women from time to time. He is in a long term relationship but he and his partner are with others including women frequently.We had heaps to drink and a bunch of coke.I ended up saying to the gay friend that I'd never experimented with being gay and that in the circumstances I didn't think that there would be a better time to see. So I kissed him. It was no different to kissing a girl so I was like ok.We kept getting messed up and decided to go to a straight massage parlour. During the massage the gay friend and I got two girls and we all got a bit frisky. I sucked his cock. I'd never done that before in my life. It was weird but I wasn't repulsed like I thought i would be. I just wanted to please him the same as if I was going down on a woman. I went down on the girls too. I found that I enjoyed going down on the girls more. The girls kept saying how hot it was to watch me go down on him and that really encouraged me to go for it. Because of the coke I was decidedly useless for everyone.When the massage finished we went back to my place. About 5 mins in to going down on him I realised I wasn't enjoying the experience when there weren't girls there. We stopped, I explained that and he completely understood like a true gentleman and left. Before that he checked on me a bunch of times to seeing I was ok; I wasn't but I kept going at first because I didn't want to let him down.I kinda enjoyed giving a guy head to the extent that i love giving pleasure but the sensation is not as nice as licking pussy for me.I guess what is strange is that from doing the gayest things in my life I realised I'm not gay but that I just love sexual experiences.What are your thoughts? How did you realise that you were gay? Have your been in a similar situation?