My boyfriend kind of repulses me...

...yeah, it sounds mean. I feel mean thinking it, but we've been together for more than three years now and my boyfriend grosses me out.It started about a year and a half ago when my boyfriend told me he had HPV and that I needed to get checked out. He's my one-and-only partner ever so I did and also had it in the form of anal warts (gross). I was prescribed a topical medication (imunoquil or something) and had a terrible reaction that rendered my back-end unusable for sex for more than six months.Throughout this time I was made to feel immense guilt, told I was putting it on and that "it couldn't be that bad".Anyway, got through the six months and was able to start doing stuff again, but only in certain positions.Since, he's been really filthy in propositioning me - standing in front of me wanking multiple times per day and turning everything into sexual innuendo, ie: me saying 'I'm hungry' and he'll immediately say "I'll fill you up.", that sort of shit.We can't even have a regular cuddle or hug without him either grabbing my dick or trying to slip a finger in my butthole. I even dread kissing him goodnight because he tries to turn it into a make out session (with the aim of sex) and sometimes just a quick kiss and a hug is nice.I've tried to explain to him that his continuous coming on to me is actually turning me off of sex with him. His response is usually 'you don't really love me then' or some such other guilt inducing shit.I do love him - but for me, sex doesn't equal love. But his constant need for sex is making me fall out of love with him.I'm starting to get to a point where I'm over it - that this is what will go on until I eventually snap and leave, or until he cheats.It's turned me off to the point where I don't even fantasise about him fucking me anymore - I think about other guys and wonder what that would be like.Has anyone been in a similar situation and have any tips on how to deal with this? I don't want to throw the three years together in the bin - I've painted him as a bit of a monster but for the most part he is a good guy.