Getting obsessed

I can't stop measuring myself. I've fapped for half of the week and measured myself many times each day. I couldn't get a single proper measurement because I couldn't get fully hard since my dick is tired. I thought I was 7x5.5 but I don't know anymore. I have a lot of problems with measuring since my dick is strongly curved upwards and it hurts alot if I try to straighten it, plus I have to be very fast and precise because it will start going down fast since it hurts. I just can't stop thinking if it's as big as I think it is. I spent hours looking at measured dick pics (but I'm not gay) and compared mine to others. It never looks big to me and I don't know if I expect too much. Even the dicks in porn don't look so big to me except some. I don't know what to do and how to stop, this is discouraging me from ever trying to meet a girl and get intimate. My dick doesn't even work anymore because of constant beating and I can't get a real measurement since, as I said, very complicated to measure plus I cum too fast due to constant stimulation. I can't seem to find out the actual size of my dick and I don't know is it as big as I think it is, it's bothering me and I can't get it out of my head.