Are gay guys desperate for love? Plz tell the truth.

OK, so basically I'm a bisexual guy and a sex addict who keeps it in the closet. I just love receiving oral sex and I found that men do a good job and actually like doing it. they have sucked me long and good with no rushing. I'm not physically attracted to men but I can definitely enjoy a man's warm mouth and wet tounge.Because I'm not physically attracted to men, I have zero to no standards as far as weight, age, fem, masc, etc. I'm basically open to letting most clean smelling and sane men suck my cock, so I have A LOT OF OPTIONS to choose from. I am also a fairly decent looking guy standing 6 ft with a slender and toned body type.I meet these guys usually online, through craigslist, tinder and a local phone chatline. Sometimes I meet guys in person if the opportunity presents itself.It never fails, no matter how old or how much money they have, or where I meet them. They all do the same thing with me!!They all agree to a no strings attached oral encounter with NOTHING ELSE. however, they never keep their end of the deal.On top of that, they have done the craziest things. Some try to suck my nipples or kiss me(major turn off),or try to cuddle with me. A few guys showed up at my home unannounced, even after ignoring their texts/calls.Some have tried to blackmail me, by threatening to tell my dirty secret unless I agree to see them again.Some try to pay me money, which I have only accepted once($160)Most continually call and text me, literally BEGGING to hangout or to be friends or date me(I don't date men)When I confront them about it, they open up and tell me how much they want to feel loved or they want a bf really bad. They also tell me the gay community is tough and its hard to find love or men they're attracted to that will accept them.I Dont care about any of that, why can't gay guys have NSA encounters with a closeted dude and just keep it as that??Are gay men desperate for love and friendship?? Am I a bad person for wanting oral sex With no strings attached?Please tell the truth, my interest in the lgbt community has grown after talking with these by guys. I'd love to know what the deal is.Can we not enjoy sexual fun and move on???