Does this make me odd?

When I see a guy I find attractive (on the internet / Reddit) I check his post history. If I see he comments a lot on body types that are 100% the opposite of mine I get depressed.Yadda yadda work on yourself. I am but this stuff is still happening.I'm starting to default to See a sexy guy -> Instantly think "He's out of my league" -> get sad.I JUST WANNA ADMIRE GUYS I FIND SEXY AND NOT FEEL DEPRESSED AFTER I WANK DAMN IT.