Star Crossed Love? (First Time Post)

This is my first post of this kind...I have never done anything like this, or been so moved to do so. From the moment that I saw his face in an obscure online selfie sub-forum, and looked into his amazing green eyes for the first time, I was beside myself at how I was taken back. I have never had a moment so powerful in my life like this. In an instant I saw something so special that for a long time words escaped me. I saw something that I recognized, deep down to my core, deeper than even my soul, if such a place exists. I recognized a soul that I some how already knew. I saw what seemed like someone familiar that I had known before. In that instant looking at him and into his eyes, it felt like a deep old love as old as the oldest living tree of life that ever lived from the most ancient of lores. One so epic and familiar that it makes Eleven lives seem like a mere blink of an eye. It felt like I found love, family, friend...like I found that part of my soul that I lost and found, it felt like home. He radiates a light from himself that can draw the most sorrowful of lost souls from the darkest realms of any plane of existence. His light is so beautiful and pure, that it is impossible not to weep tears at its existence. But, how can this be? I have neither seen nor spoken to him before, I never knew of his existence inthis life until this moment. What can explain how this is possible to see and feel this, and to do so this powerfully and deeply..... and find this in another? I had to catch myself and my breath and step back. I had to pause and make sure this was not me projecting anything onto him unintentionally. I spent days pondering and just allowing the feelings and thoughts flow and wash over me. I was still struggling to understand how looking at someone that I never knew before in this life could almost bring me to tears; at how much just one short look into his eyes can make me feel this way?I temporarily shifted my focus on that initial overwhelming experience to just wanting to get to know him. I reached out to him, and complimented him on his pics. He replied with an overabundance of positivity flowing through his words and gratitude. I knew from that fist glance that he was unbelievably special and rare....I just knew it deep in my core. It only was strengthened by our conversations that ensued over the last month, as we shared more with each other and about each other. As we slowly began to discover more about each other, it just all flowed so effortlessly, so naturally, so seamlessly. What he does for a living is helping others learn in a certain field, and the comments by his students just only bolster the immensely and incredibly rare and beautiful person and soul that he is. Every comment and review of him as their instructor is just a testament to his core and quality and character. He is a rare and beautiful soul that we need more of on this planet so desperately. It's amazing to see how he shares this with the world, and it obvious that he does what he can to make it a better place. And clearly we are all better for knowing him. He has a gift, one that I don't fully know if he realizes just how much and how powerful it is to others that surround him, and that are drawn to him. We would continue to build our foundation sharing the tid bits of our lives and ourselves, getting to know things bout who we are and what brings us joy and what we appreciate about life and our friends and family, etc. I learned that like many of us have, he had a painful past for many reasons. A lot I still do not know the details of, but look forward one day for him to share those things with me when he feels ready and safe to do so. But, the one thing that stood out most to me is that he is on the heels of a divorce from his ex-husband. My first reaction was one of wanting to reach out and just hug him and make him feel comforted. I already know that he is such an incredibly and powerfully strong person for trying to move forward past something like this, and still look outward and try to be there for everyone else, and make others smile and think of everyone else but his own hurts in this sensitive time. Of course I am human and I also felt a bit of disappointment and my heart sunk a little, knowing from experience this is a really bad tame for even the most well adjusted person. And I, a little selfishly thought to myself... why?? to God, to Fate, to the Universe...why did you make our paths cross like this now? Why now while his heart is in this unreachable place in life? I then also learned that he has a friend and casual lover of sorts that he is with that fills that empty space, and shares intimate time and space with him. Again, my heart sank a little more, and again so confused as why were our paths crossed like this? Why now? I couldn't make sense of this. Despite all this, I just kept my personal feelings temporarily suspended on a shelf. I wanted to purely and genuinely get to know him. As time progressed and we had spent weeks talking and sharing our lives on a social media site, we got to really learn a lot more about each other over time. His ever steadfast positivity and energy and exuberance for life is just amazing. I got to see more pics of him in various daily situations, and this included his family. He is very close with his family. And that initial feeling that I had the first time I laid eyes on him, I felt it again when I saw his mother and his brother and other family members. I saw something again I just couldn't believe that I was feeling. I saw family, I saw love, I saw home. It's nearly impossible to hold back the tears as I write all of this. It's so overwhelming. I don't know whats happening, I could speculate, but that is something I don't want to do. All I know is that when we are not sharing time with together and not connected, something feels so out of balance now. When we are connected and sharing I feel like I have come alive again, each time. When I am connected with him it's surreal, it feels like I have been granted the most amazing blessing from the Divines. He makes me want to be a better man knowing him, I smile more than I ever have knowing him. My life is permanently changed knowing him, I will never be the same again, and this is a beautiful thing. We had the most connected day yet recently sharing music and other things that mean a lot to each of us personally. It was the most amazing time I had to spend with him yet. It's eclipsed a little by some sadness as well as he leaves for a very long extended vacation with his family overseas tomorrow. Though we have not yet met in person, and all of our interactions have been through various online mediums, I will miss him. I know that even though he is technically just a click away, still just the same, I know he will not be available while he is away. I will miss him so much, more than I think he will even realize. I look forward to being able to share time with him again when he returns. I don't know what to make of all of this. I am going to just keep getting to know him, and continue to earn his time and trust and respect and perhaps more one day, and the same vice versa. For now, though it's difficult in some aspects, I am happy to and thankful that we entered into each other's lives, and I unconditionally support him in whatever makes him happy as he moves through his personal process and heals and grows. One thing is for certain, I am happier than I have been in years, smiling like I have not in years, and I am thankful that I can bring the same for him. Despite the vast distance between us, when I am with him it's like an indescribable transcendent experience at times. There is definitely something very special there, though I attempted to in this post, there are no words that can truly and adequately describe the amazing man that he is, and I only hope that there is a future there for us....one day.