I'm sorry that I posted here for attention. Sometimes I feel like the only way to get any is to be extreme because I feel so rejected and alone.

The experiences I shared that I've gone through are true, but in my posts in the pasts I've been dramatic. To be honest, /r/askgaybros (reddit in general I guess) and MMOs are the only social stimulants I take advantage of today. I only talk to my parents and a couple friends I see once a week. All of my other interactions with people are online. I do contribute to class discussion, but it's a requirement and tests your knowledge/intelligence which isn't my issue.I just want to say I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings the other day.I don't know how to be a human being anymore and I'm slowly trying to relearn. It's hard. For those that don't know, I spend months in my home at a time without leaving when I'm not at school. No interaction with anyone but my parents and then talking to people online/on texts. Even when I was abroad, I only went to dinner and field trips with people from my program and then went back to my room to play video games.I feel so isolated and rejected by people that I feel I need to go to extremes (threatening suicide, throwing temper tantrums) to be noticed.I'm sorry if I disappointed anyone the other day. I was doing well for a while and then derailed. I'm trying my best and sometimes I fail, but I'm trying.