Sexually confused!!

Well I am 23 year old Indian living in US. Like most people seem to realize about their sexual confusion in childhood, i on the other hand never had any confusion or attraction towards men. I always fantasized about girls, let it be girls from school or actresses. I never felt out of place or odd about it. I was a studious kid into studies (what people call a geek) so never been in any relationship with girls.It all started from a couple of years ago. When i am in college i was checking out porn for the first time. I was fascinated by it, then later checked out gay porn and never went back to straight porn form that point. Gay porn always turned me on. I always wanted to have a muscular body like hot men. I am also kinda turned on by my own body if that makes sense.Then i came to US. I thought to explore and see if I am gay or bisexual. problem is I don't like most of the gay men( didn't mean to offend anyone). I just don't like men acting feminine. I just couldn't relate to any of them. I don't care about my dressing or hair style or self grooming much(just to state few stereotypical examples). I have been with 3 people so far. didn't like any one of those experiences. It could be because of the guys i have been with. But still i really like the idea of oral sex with men or being dominated. I like sex cam with guys (guilty pleasure). Never been with a girl. I don't like the idea of being with a girl to test your sexuality.Sorry for all the rambling but THE MAIN ISSUE is accepting I am gay or bi (not straight). I am having trouble accepting that. All my actions point to that but i am worried that if i come out to be gay i might loose my life and i feel like i might not really fit into the gay world. Should i try and date girls to be totally sure even though i ethically feel its wrong??( but sometimes i feel i couldn't have been wrong for 20 yrs or so. and should give it a try ..). If i accept I am gay and end up not liking any men..what then?