First gay breakup

As ridiculous as this seems, I am reaching out to get helpful advice on moving on. Here is some background:In February, I had decided that I would begin to take action upon my attraction to men. Tinder seemed like a good place to start. So, after a few weeks of swiping left and right and a few conversations that led no where, I met Kyle. After conversing back and forth for over a week, we decided to meet. It was official, I had my first date with a guy.After our initial date was successful, we had decided to meet again. Again, after our second date, we made more plans. Within a week, I was staying over his place multiple times. After. A few weeks we were making plans together for our days off. I was really beginning to fall for this guy. He would continuously tell me that I was, "the best part of his week", and that made me swoon.So, after seeing each other and dating for almost 4 months, he began to get cold. He took a trip to visit friends on the west coast and I did not hear from him the whole time he was there. I had not reached out to him because the night before he left, he refused to get physical with me and it made me feel like shit. (This was the third or fourth time in two weeks that he gave me the cold shoulder when I tried to get physical with him.) I realize there were better ways to handle that situation rather than to act slightly cold towards him but there is not much I can do about that now.He returned from the west coast and still had not contacted me. So, I swallowed my pride and texted him, asking all about his trip. He answered but each answer was short and non-descriptive. Which was odd because he was usually very chatty and explained things in depth. After being separated for over a week at this point, I dropped any issue that I had had before he left. It felt stupid and I really wanted to see him. I suggested we make plans and he agreed. We decided that I would head over two days later to hang out, like we would normally do. I was excited because it felt like after our time apart, things were finally falling back into place.Two days came and went. As I was getting ready to go into the city to stay at his place, he sent me a text. In this text, he let me know that, before he had to do it face to face, that he did not feel a spark between us and was interested in being friends. It was hard to hear because I have genuine feelings for him (even after such a short time of dating).I was pretty upset but I wasn't going to beg or turn into one of those pitiful beings who continuously hound the person who recently broke it off with them. I respected his decision and feelings but it stilled sucked - A LOT! I thought that this could turn into something serious and had a strong connection with Kyle. After his words, I felt really down on myself and tried to figure out what went wrong.So, it has been about a month since we last spoke. Today, I decided to reach out and let him know I was thinking about him and missed him. I made sure to word it in a super casual fashion and was clear that I wanted to be his friend and would enjoy hanging out sometime.His response was cordial and nice. He was sure to let me know how "busy" he had been and would be over the next few weeks. He advised me that he would like to hang out and catch up, but was unsure when his schedule would allow it. Again, not the answer I was seeking, but I care about and respect him enough to try to be rational and understanding.In short, I'm writing this because I need help moving on. I know it might seem juvenile and a bit ridiculous. However, I can't seem to get him out of my head. Any advice for me? Anything I should or shouldn't be doing? I'd love for some suggestions/advice from the community.Thanks in advance!