Coming out to myself

Hello,I could like to write an entire book about my emotions right now but that would be unreadable for anyone but myself.Instead I try to summarize my story as short as possible, as I do feel I have to share my story to some random people on the internet.I was late to the party, my first intended orgasm was at age 16. Before that I never put any thoughts about girls(or boys for that mater) Things went rapidly from there as I felt I had to catch up, dated some girls but not very succesfull. Discovered tranny porn and sissy lifestyle. Fell down into the sissy/feminization fetish but considered myself straight. Crossdressing, hypnosis files and just fantasying became something regular.Kneeling down infront of the mirror wearing a lingerie set and with red painted lips whilst holding a banana in my hand did not change my stubbornness . "It was a phase" I told myself often.This year, at age 22 I decided to reset my brain thinking a no-fap challenge would heal the confusion in my head. Everything went well and two months later there I was feeling more confident and less introvert ready to go clubbing with my friends this time ready to grab the attention of the local girls. But of course that did not happen, instead as I sat at the bar I watched one of my friends flirt with a hot girl and I SAW why she felt attraction to him. I left with the excuse I was tired but I was angry at myself. Angry that I did not feel attraction to the girls there but instead I was checking out one of my best mates. But perhaps also angry that I was in denial even though it was obvious enough for years on end!.Abstaining from orgasm was the best thing I could do in my life, it made me realise how bad porn is for your health(I have a really low testosterone level!) but also how it effects your social life . work and school results if you use it as an excuse.That night changed me, yes I was angry at myself for sure but it also opened up my eyes. The next week on my way to uni I caught myself secretly looking at guys in the train. It was exiting and I felt no guilt at all. In the last week I let my fantasies go and enjoyed every dirty thoughts, but that might be just to much information to share.That leads us to now. Reflecting on the past few months and how stupid I was for the last few years. My entire teenage years spent watching porn and getting drunk on the weekends. But also curious on the future. And that's where this subreddit comes in. Are there any somewhat similar stories to mine? if so how did you progress after coming out you yourself?Feel free to ask questions and advice is always welcome.