I'm scared and feeling very alone

About a month ago I discovered I was gay. I'm 17 years old and i live in south Texas, and there is almost no gay people here. It's very frowned upon, and I can't help but feel attracted to men. I went to Houston last week and met someone, he was really cute but he didn't actually live there, and when he left he kissed me on the cheek but didn't give me a number or anything. Right now only 3 people know, but if anyone else found out i would be in a ton of trouble with pretty much everyone. Last year when someone came out as gay they were beaten pretty bad, so that doesn't really help with my situation. I really wish I could just meet someone and just let them hold me. If anyone has any advice, it's very much appreciated. Thank you so much.