Am I just not worth it? Is it me? Or am I just not ready?

So I have known I was gay since almost 4 years old and since I moved out of my mom's and over to my dad's when I was 16, I started to tell new friends. I am now 23 and officially came out.I feel so much more confident, but really it's just made me feel more self assured with my sexuality. I think I'll always have issues with my confidence and self-esteem. Life sometimes seems so dark and it's sad because I know it's all because I don't get much attention from men. I always feel like I am ugly and just recently gave up Grindr and Tinder, because I want to find something other than hooking up.I just got an OkCupid and it seems like yet again I am not attractive enough. It's weird because a part of me knows that I am attractive, but at the same time I feel undesired because I only get messages from men I don't find attractive. I don't want to settle, but at almost 24 and not have even had a first legit boyfriend I fear I'll be alone forever.I want the perspective of my fellow gay men, am I attractive? I've been going to the gym to get my body in shape, but what if that's not enough? I think there is something wrong here if I feel like I need to change myself.I understand if I can't attract super good looking men... I guess it's difficult accepting where I stand on the scale especially with finally getting through my biggest hurdle to come out.I'm 5'3'' Middle Eastern There's a pic of me with no body hair, it's a bit older but I got much fatter after that and now I am finally back to that body weight, probably a little better. Anyway... Thanks in advance for any advice... and honest opinions. I'm strong and can handle it, I just need to know.http://ift.tt/1KbFWjq