The worst thing about being in the closet..

.. isn't not having sex or a relationship. It's the fact that nobody in my life knows me. And I mean truly knows me.Family and friends don't know I'm gay. People I meet online don't know who I am. Ever person I've ever interacted with only know a part of me. No one ever knew me.And I made it that way. And I'm fucking afraid of uncovering myself -vulnerabilities or not- to any other human. I just want for anyone to know me, for real.