I'm gay but I like girls

I've identified as pan for like years and I've always has a preference for boys (like 80:20). However I'm pretty sure I'm gay. I like girls a bit but I think I'd feel rather incomplete and like something is missing. On top of that I'm agender (born male) so I feel the whole idea of dating and having a sexual relationship would just be awkward with a girl, I'd feel uncomfortable about my body if I'm with a girl because there's that contrast there. Hence, despite being attracted to girl a bit, I'd much prefer a boyfriend and think I'm gay. Even the idea of being gay makes me happier and more comfortable.On another note, I'm 18 now and I've never had a girl/boyfriend. I guess that's because I was bullied until like 14 and then after that questioned mt sexuality and wasn't interesting up dating until now. But I'm going to university in September so hopefully it'll be a new start...?...however it's a "rural" university which suits me perfectly except out of the 10,000 student population the gay scene is small and the nearest big metropolitan area is a 1.5 hours away. I scared I'll never find a boyfriend. I imagine after I graduate at 22 and get a job I'll be too busy with that to be dating at all :/Any advice? Thanks