Genderqueerness

Okay, so I'm sick of gender. I'm a cis man, and I'm not really unhappy with my body as such (it could be in better shape). But I'm fed up with the arbitrary universally enforced ideas about what people should do based on their gender. I sometimes wear skirts, though I've only worn one outside of my home once. I'm not really sure what I want to wear. In no small part money is a factor, as I suppose is how brave I feel (usually not very - I get verbal abuse from passing cars all the time, for reasons I can't from; I don't mince, I dress in a very boring conventional style. Maybe it's to do with my height and posture. Fuck knows.). I just don't really identify with maleness or femaleness. I'm not interested.I dunno. How do you all feel about this? Any similar experiences? What should I do?! I know difficult things get easier each successive time generally. I'm just not sure what those difficult things should be. Sometimes I'd maybe like to wear some make-up or a skirt or even a dress around, but it's not as though I feel like a prisoner or an alien in my usual shirt/T-shirt and jeans. And really on a pure clothing level, I know most skirts or dresses aren't flattering to my figure because they're not made for people with narrow hips and no tits.I'm not effeminate, I'm not masculine, I don't really want to be either but I'm not comfortable where I am either. Please help if you can, as a response or a PM. Let's see if we can agree on something, maybe look at starting a sub, I dunno. There is so much gender essentialism, even in LGBT communities. Whilst I love and respect trans people, I do sometimes wonder to what extent people's gender identity is shaped by the stupid rules about clothing. A person can't 'cross dress' (ie. wear a piece of clothing society has issues about) in public without his whole identity being called into question. Why can't it just be what it is? Fabric, or powder, or certain activities, or whatever else?I'm at the end of my tether.