Bad/depressing situation. Looking for advice. (Sorry for the length)

Okay. Well, where to begin. I'm a college student who is home for the summer. The last few weeks of this school year were amazing! I loved every moment of it. But one guy in particular really caught my attention. (Oh, I am a guy as well. Hint. Hint.) We're both pretty masculine, not like extremely manly, but I'd say definitely more masculine traits than feminine. He asked me about my sexuality while eating sushi in my dorm once. After telling him I was bi (sort of, I hate labels but for simplicity), he started to hang around me a lot and I, as expected, really started to enjoy his presence and began really liking him. He knows I'm into a guy whose apart of our friend-group, but he doesn't know its him.He identifies as straight, but it just seems strange that this great friendship happened all of a sudden. I have spoken to a good friend about it and she says she has questioned his sexuality, too. My theory about it is that he has a strict, "macho" dad so he has to try to be a "man" to impress him. Also, he went to an all boys school, so he might have tried to fit in with the bros.I hate it. He tells me these stories of girls hooking up with his friends after flirting with him, getting his hopes up, treating him like shit. He told me about his ideal woman in this deep discussion we had, and everything he described (besides all the lady parts, obviously) was something that I would do and would be happy to do for him. I become depressed and attack myself for it.He wants to come visit me sometime this summer (which I would love), but I am hesitant. My house isn't anything like his (he has money). I don't want to show him to my friends here. Quite frankly, I have become bored of them now. I feel like I would feel ashamed if he came. I know that sounds awful, but... I don't know, it just sounds awful.Now, I have fallen into this state of not feeling. I don't even know if I'm sad or depressed because I just don't feel anything. I feel alone and go to places like restaurants and shisha lounges alone now, even if my friends here want to hang out. I just work, read my school books, and smoke weed. That friend previously mentioned (not the guy) has noticed and says I'm a mess.I'm looking for REAL, DEEP, INTELLECTUAL advice, not that, "Sometimes, a ray of sunshine clears the cloudiest days," bullshit. TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, PLEASE. I just need to get through the summer.