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2018. május 31., csütörtök
What happened
What happened to my life? Like for real. The happy, full of hope teenager that believed he could make things work, that the people he cares about would care for him when he comes out is long gone, he 'died' in misery and pain and as it turns out his hopes were empty, I am still in the same awful place just as before but unlike then my hope is gone. I hate my existence. Wish my mom had had an abortion.
Why do I feel this toward a gay friend?
This is going to be long. So please bear with me. Besides that, this is my first reddit post. If I said something wrong, please correct me.I am gay, tested HIV positive since July 2017. After I achieved undetectable viral load in January, I mentioned it on my Grindr profile. Then, came a guy. He contacted me on Grindr, started by asking questions about HIV, then it slowly turned into a friendly chat. That day, we exchanged pictures. Then few days later, he contacted me again, we eventually exchanged numbers. Initially our conversations through texts messages were limited. After a few weeks, we decided to meet up.Meeting up with him changed everything. I slowly grew fond of him. We have met up for four times before today. The more we met up, the more I got interested in him. I viewed him more of a friend than something romantic. One of the reasons I tried to limit my relationship with him because I doubted that I was attractive or interesting to him.Today, he sought help from me. All in all, I knew he had sex with a man the day before. Now, I knew that he had a bf before and has a girlfriend right now. However, right now, after seeing him and spend the morning with him with something, I feel weird. I feel down. I feel uneasy. Probably, it has to do with the fact that he had sex with a man? But, what confuses me is, I never consider him as my love interest. I would never want to have sex with him. So, why would I feel sad knowing that he had sex with a man, while I myself have been hooking up with men too?I hope anyone who has experienced such feelings before could help me out. If not, probably you can share some tips to get over such feelings. Thank you very much.
Being a gay man can make your body issues worse
I stumbled upon this article just now, and it made me reflect my social life ever since I came out a few years ago.I spoke to a few men anonymously about this on Grindr. As one told me, “what’s seen as normal in straight men isn’t the same with gay men. “You can be ‘straight thin’, but ‘gay fat’.”Truth be told, what I thought would be liberating turned out to also make me awfully self-conscious. A lot of gay men here are seeking validation which results in fixation with their appearance. I spent years being looked down just because I don't have the perfect abs and biceps, and to make matter worse, I live in a Muslim-majority country that condemns homosexuality. It's hard enough hiding from society, and now I get to be isolated in my own community as well.I've been struggling to find any sort of meaningful relationship because people are so focused on physicality, and nothing else. There's no such thing as brain over beauty in gay community (at least around me), and it's either you succumb to this awfully superior social pressure or get lonely most of your time.I get that everybody has standard and preferences, but then again, when 90% of the people you came across are judgmental about your appearance, and won't even spend one second to look at you just because you don't have a six-pack and muscular body, life can be pretty lonely.Cheers from a slightly ajar closet.
Fellow bottoms, did you experience this?
Backstory:So I'm single, in my early twenties and a bottom. I got sick of trying to find a partner, so decided to get a butt plug off of Amazon and do the job myself. A couple months back, I used it for the first time. This was the first time I have put anything up there. Everything was pretty good and it felt good. I'm pretty sure it was stimulating my prostate, because whenever it went in deep enough and at just the right angle, things felt really good.So now the problem I have, is whenever my butt cheeks spread even a little, from walking up stairs to sitting on a chair, I get some stimulation down there. It pretty much feels like what it's like when the butt plug stimulated my prostate, but a lot less intense.To some extent I'd say it's almost like when you're on a diet and just want to eat everything. But instead of food, it's a butt plug.So the questions are:1 - Wtf?2 - Did anyone else get this after exploring their booty hole? :-D
Had a moment last night
So I'm just gonna pour out my emotions here. Last night I had some revelations about the state of my life and I kinda feel like it was a second coming out to myself. I'm 21 now and I started coming out to friends and eventually my father and sister at 18 as gay. I haven't told my mother yet (religious one) and I was just thinking that maybe it's a bit selfish to have my dad keep that secret still even if we don't usually talk about things like that. Who knows maybe he told her or she already knows. But still, it would suck to know that I told my dad and sister 3 years ago and not her.I've also been thinking about my mental state and why I feel depressed again considering I have a nice accepting group of friends and family surrounding me and I realized it's mostly myself to blame. I keep holding myself still from being my true self. I keep saying things to myself like "maybe when I lose weight I'll have the confidence to come out to everyone" or "when I leave the country and begin my life somewhere else I can be happy and live my life." I realized that I can't keep stopping myself from these things. My country may not be the most accepting (Caribbean) but it's safe enough in my circles to do as I want. I need to stop thinking of myself as lesser and start living. I've never been in a gay relationship and it's honestly because I was too afraid to put myself out there. I have gay friends and know a few couples and if they can live their life to the fullest so can I.As for right now I think my depression has lifted a bit and I'm going to try and work on myself in terms of confidence and keeping a healthy mind, diet and workout pattern to try and bring some kind of routine into my life and I'm going to focus on what's important to me instead of bringing up old negatives that have long passed.
Power bottoms, I need advice
As an aspiring power bottom, I call on those power bottoms that came before me, how can I become a successful power bottom?
Gay behavior clishee?
I‘m getting this a lot. I’m gay and look and behave, it seems, outside the gay clishee. Whenever I tell people I’m gay I get „What, you don’t look gay, you don’t behave gay, bla bla.“ Is this myth of all gays behaving differently still so deeply in the minds of the people that some don’t even believe you are, when you don’t behave the way they think you should? People should realize that these two things are not necessarily connected. A gay person can behave more manly/girly than the average and revert.
2018. május 30., szerda
Anyone else?
Anyone else have no gay friends and no straight accepting friends? How do you go by without any friends? I find it really hard, I used to be a very socially engaged person and now that I have no friends it's like a huge hole of loneliness...
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